Hi all,

Sorry not to catch up on the personals and also that I've been missing in action since Jan.

DH and I have just had a huge row, to the point where I think we might call it quits. I've recently got a promotion at work and am really enjoying it, it's great for my career and after TTC for over 3 years, I am over it and now really want to concentrate on my career. That's not to say that I don't want a family, I desperately do, but I also am not one of those people who wants to be a mum full stop. I don't really care how I am judged for that, I know how I feel and what is good for my soul. So, having a family for me does not mean giving up my career. I want to wait until June until we try ivf, yet again, as if it does work, i don't want to tell my boss that I am pg and not be taken seriously, then put an end to my career. I'd rather have a few months under me in this position before I go through the stress of ivf again too.

DH has suggested adopting, which I was not happy about, but after a lot of thinking and soul searching I think it would be a good thing to do. I know I have the capacity to love a child, biologically mine or not. DH wants to adopt and to have 'our own' child IYKWIM. But I think we should face up to the fact that maybe we'll never be able to get pg and adoption could be the only way we'll have a family.

DH just does not believe that I'll do ivf again in June and is doubting me. I feel so angry with him for this, as I will try again in June. Also I don't feel that he understands what I am feeling about my career. He makes promises which financially I know we can't possibly sustain.

I love him so much and don't want my marriage to end, but this issue is driving a huge wedge between us. Maybe I'm being selfish, as he's older than me and feels time is not on his side. But I can't help how old he is. That's just something he'll have to deal with.

I'm so sorry to ramble, and to jump in in the middle of a thread, but I don't know where else to turn.

Any advice please?????