Alex - i'm sorry your IL's are giving you and DH grief atm. it's amazing the number of people who think they know more than you do in regard to the TTC journey, isn't it? you've given AC a go for a little while, time to move on - adopt a baby, obviously it's easy - and just by adopting, you'll end up pregnant straight away cos that's the way things happen... i've had the same sort of comments from a friend "as soon as you go through the process to adopt, you'd probably find out you're pregnant anyway" - she'd caught me on a bad day, so i turned around and asked "what, does signing the paperwork to adopt a baby miraculously take away my fertility problems?" - maybe not the nicest thing to do, but that way of thinking isn't helpful and i wanted her to know it - being able to adopt is a really special thing for some people - and shouldn't be looked at as a means of changing your priorities so that you can end up with a biological child of your own!
Holly - sounds like it's just been the week for in-laws to be hurtful. how inconsiderate! is it really that difficult to ask you if you'd like anything kept? it's easy enough for you to say "no thanks" if you don't want the hand-me-downs or if you'd prefer that they be given to charity so that you don't have the reminder of your journey all the time - but that isn't a decision they should be making for you (and if they did decide to just give the clothes to charity to prevent an uncomfy conversation with you - discuss it when you're not in the room!!) . i understand why you are hurt - and i understand your DH's anger at his rellies - it's not like you've taken the decision to undertake AC lightly - this is a really big decision, and it's obviously important to both of you - how difficult is it to show a little bit of interest, to let him know they care?!?
as for me - i really don't know how i'm feeling today - i guess "flat" is as good a way as any to describe it. had a massage this morning, which was really nice, but still feeling ordinary. i guess i forgot some of the stuff from last time i was on the synarel. getting weird little pains around my ovaries, which i'm sure is related to the down regulation of hormones and triggering AF, but i forgot it from last cycle, and now i'm finding it more than mildly annoying. ahve had a really nice massage, and want to be able to relax, and instead, my stomach is giving me grief! how rude!! it's nothing major, but i'm feeling really sookie today, which is annoying me too! got an email this morning from a cousin i haven't heard from in a little while and when i was replying, telling her about where we're at with the AC journey tears started spilling down my cheeks - and i've been like that off and on all afternoon. it's not like me to cry (unless i'm in a lot of pain, or have had a really bad day and am wrapped up in DH's arms at bed time) and i think it's annoying me that i'm feeling so emotional today - and the more annoyed i get,the more emotional i get - really bad cycle!! i guess that kinda explains my personals as well - i really feel strongly about bothe things that were said, and probably haven't minded my p's and q's as much as i normally would - i guess you could probaly label it synarel induced PMS - but i wouldn't really know cos my cycle has never been regular enough for me to pin down what PMS/PMT feels like!! DH has just gone to the pub with some friends, and i got a look from one of them cos i'm being anti-social sitting at home with my puter instead of going out - but i don't drink anyway, and i just don't feel like being around everyone at the moment - is that such a crime??
time to go close up the house - it's starting to get cold, so i'm going to shut everything up, ligth some candles, curl up on the couch with a nice warm blanket - and maybe add to my ttc journal!
ETA: - oops, forgot have to pick DH and friends up from the pub in a little while, so no candles just yet - will have to settle for a Freddo instead!
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