erm... no... I'm not really ok.

I'm hyperstimulating again - badly! My levels now are higher than they ever were in my first cycle, and it's scaring me to death.

I'm still not sure when I'll get to EPU. Praying for Sunday rather than Monday.
I know I will not transfer with this cycle.
I know I'm going to get very sick. It seems likely that I will wind up in hospital this time.

But this seems to be my peculiar little battle to fight every time. I'm trying to focus on the fact that I've got through it before, I can get through it again, but I'm mostly paralysed by fear right now.

BG has a full time job on her hands talking me down, good thing she's on leave at the moment or I don't know what I'd do!

And yup, it's scary. I don't want to frighten people going through IVF for the first time. I'm an oddball, worst case scenario, walking disaster. And that's why I'm fairly quiet right now.

BW