Sush, no way, it's not you at all, and your reply to the other thread was very helpful. I very much appreciate people getting straight to the point and you gave me exactly what I was after. No, our attitude (and I don't mean that in a negative way) has been there from the start. I can't quite put my finger on it but I just don't think it's going to happen on this occasion. I think it will happen eventually but it may well involve another stim cycle, and beyond that who knows?

BB, sorry - I did leave my old name up (where it says Platinum Member) but took it down after a couple of days. I was hoping not to confuse anyone and because my avatar/user pic is still sitting in the queue (designed and sent when I was still Rols) it probably made it hard for people to realise I was still me as there was nothing else to identify me by! As for me taking stuff in my stride, I certainly seem to with the big things in life, but the small things do my head in regarding worrying. Anyway I hope you can finally start your next cycle soon.

Peta, sorry this one didn't work out. Keep chipping away at it.