Thanks everyone for replying, it's nice to just be able to read how you all cope with talking about it and the emotions. Thanks for sharing you have helped me feel a bit better :-)

My turn - sucks af is giving you such awful cramps, this stuff seems to really mess with it. I was the opposite last month it was the only time I haven't had excoriating cramps during af since doing ivf. Our bodies really are a huge mystery to us, forever changing the goal posts on us. Hope it settles down soon for you xo