loula - Sorry to hear you are a little down, I totally understand where you are coming from, I am only into the 4th day in the 2ww. Just taking it easy and trying to be normal. Had a bit of concern last night, got a little crampy and felt a bit of period pain, so that was a bit worring. Hey if it is meant to be it will be and I know it will happen one day, we have been there before but we had a MC so it is not like it can't happen, but I guess like everyone you always have at the back of your mind, maybe it might not ever happen, but I guess you can only try. Wish you all the best for your BT and I hope you get a great surprise. Please try and stay strong and positive and it is OK to feel down and vent. Your DH sounds so great and what a wonderful way to celebrate your 1st anniversary and a great time out from life and stresses. All the best and sticky vibes and baby dust for you, we are all here for you if needed but maybe not