i know what you mean Lou - it's hard when you have your heart set on something for so long but for one particular reason - and then someone else uses it for the same thing.

quick question - do you have any friends or family that are handy enough around the house to whip up something like that when it comes time to need it. i know i've seen some awesome things, and in my head i have a nursery all designed - but i didn't have the funds at the time to buy them then - i have a brother who will make it (i have something very similar to the cube bookshelf in mind) - but will make it to be exactly how i want it - so that it's wall mounted and fits around other furniture properly - maybe it's an idea to think about... and no, it's not selfish to be upset that your friends got to use them when it was your idea!

BW - i'm glad you have a friend you were able to vent to through your little "meltdown" - and i agree, you're really really lucky that your friend is in the job they are. i guess we're all prone to meltdowns of different types at the moment!