Oh Bell - I know exactly how you feel, I couldnt even tell DH late last night when my TWW was over, I felt like he was going to be disapointed as he was so positive "this was It"...

Im doing it really hard this time, I even packed away the baby clothes I have had neatly hanging in the "spare" bedroom, since my first + , they are just such a reminder of what should be, DH wants to wait till Feb to start on IVF again, he wants me to take an 8 week break - he doesnt even know the half of how devastated I feel, thank god, or he would want me to wait till JUNE or something.. I will just leave the 8 week wait alone, he will come around, it's just a man thing, he doesnt understand my obsession with becoming preg, he just knows we are trying really hard for a bub ...

I know Im rambling, I have no-one else to talk too, but my keyboard and my cyber friends who know more about me right now than my family ....Oh God I hope my FS is WRONG !!!! and it's not my age ....

I would be going insane right now if it wasnt for BB - thank god for Kelly - the creator of BB ..