craftymummy-i'm giving the old-fashioned why another go due to fet being cancelled(not that i'm thinking it will do any good unless we get some super sperm that can break through my tubal blockage,i find though i can't just miss a month),i've been doing a detox diet,maybe that will work wonders...mildez-hope you found your book,i had to go re-read parts of mine lots of times,sorry i probably confused you more...afm-have an oppurtunity to write matthew's story to sumit for possible publication in a book about loss,not sure if i should or not(don't know if i would be able to honour his memory well enough)