T-Hope & Damprye-i know that feeling it is just f#cking horrible when we try so hard for what we really want and don't seem to be able to get it my family should have been completed last year with the birth of Abbi and i should be playing happy families right now if it wasnt for DH and i carrying this bad gene i felt like i would never see those 2 lines again and now i feel like i will never have a healthy baby and the feeling of others getting pregnant when we so deserve it just makes the whole thing worse.
My DH's ex has another new boyfreind the 4th in 3 years and every time she gets a new boyfreind DH's daughter ( who is 9) comes over and say's i hope mum gets pregnant soon so i can have a brother or sister (she has no blood related other than Abbi if she were alive) and it makes my heart drop because she was so excited when i was pregnant and couldnt stop talking about it and when we lost Abbi the poor little bugger had to go to counciling at school because she didnt cope very well then she kept asking me when are you going to have another baby we had to end up telling her we are not going to have any more we have brought the 2 kittens insted we had to tell her that to protect her from getting her hopes up with something that might never happen and when she came over the other day and anounced that her mum has taken her pregnancy bar out of her arm (her words) i nearly hypoventilated it is something i want to do so much for her i want to give her a brother or sister i have this dream to surprise her with the news when we get the all clear and i am so worried that her mum will get pregnant and take that away from me i pray this baby is healthy for us and for our family but so much more for DH's daughter.
My boys have each other and DH's daughter's biggest wish is to have one of her own.
It is a hard journey this ttc and even harder when pregnancy announcements are thrown in our face but we need to keep going and do our best that is all we can do and just hope that luck is on our side for once.
Sorry for rambling.
AFM-just plotting along counting the days until i can finally breath a sigh of relief.
I was laying on my belly last night and felt bub it felt like a bunch of worms wriggling around in my belly it was awesome this baby has to be healthy it all seems to good to go wrong.
damprye-thanks,i'm glad you had a nice birthday...ferrals-hope the councilling helped dh's daughter,the poor thing,i think sometimes people forget that siblings suffer a big loss too when a bub dies,hope she is enjoying playing little mummys real soon.
It's nice to see everything back up and running. I tried to get onto BB for 2 days to see how Ferrals CVS went and couldn't do it. I was shocked to hear they dropped your sample Ferrals. I would imagine they were very distressed about that in the lab but that doesn't make things better for you. I hate that about a complex pregnancy. There are so many ups and downs. One second there is hope and the next it's compromised again. I really do believe that signs look very positive for you this time though
Alice - I also check often to see how Dory is doing. It's hard to believe it will be any day now. It's is so exciting.
Sunbeam - Happy Birthday for the other day. The blanket sounds like a good idea. I can picture you with a big fat pregnant belly and the rug over your knees all cosy and dreaming of your life together.
Hi Saffy, Damprye, Matthew's Mum and Crafty
I had my scan the other day to see if there were complications that could be causing the miscarriages. I am yet to go back to the FS but the operator told me she couldn't see anything that would contribute and she did say that I had lots of eggs left. Can they see that? She even told me where I was going to ovulate from and around what day that would occur which is very handy as I am not getting the usual physical signs for ovulation.
My family wants me to commit to a holiday in Bali next February but if I get pregnant I'm not sure I should go. Do you think travel before 20 weeks is a dangerous thing? I don't really want to miss out on the holiday as it would be a fantastic trip and many of the family have expressed interest. I may not even get pregnant. Should I book and accept I may lose money if I cancel?
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matthewsmum - good luck with your research, i have never heard of that treatment! i will have to do some googling! good on you for having a break this month, your very strong & i pray that the break is all you need to get ready for the following cycle xx
ferrals - its such a yuk feeling isnt it?! I used to be one of those ppl who got so excited to hear of pregnant women and would be the 1st to congratulate them, now im rocking somewhere in the corner when i hear the news!! How i wish things were different! Thats very sad that DH's daughter had a hard time with it, the poor darling, so hard cause they dont understand it all! But she is about to become a sister! Bubs is going to be ok, so wonderful that you felt a wriggle!!!
dampyre - happy bday for the other day, thank you for your words, you all help me so much! hope your having fun cruising!
sammyp - tricky situation for you huh.... if i was in your position, i would definatly book for the holiday! I think it gives you something to look forward to and focus on! If it does turn out that your UTD in February and your not comfortable going, then dont! It would be a good problem to have if you know what i mean!? BUT i dont see any reason why you couldnt go away UTD anyway, as long as your FS is happy, relax and have a happy babymoon and special quality time with your fam!!!! xx
Sunbeam - yes you were right!!! You are an 'eggspert' hehhe! How are those new baby cuddles going?? Awww!! And lovely idea about your hope blanket!! Love it!
ALice - thx alice, it has eased off now thank god! was a bit scary! i took your advice and drank lots of water and i think that helped! thank you! And yay for the jabbing!! i have found this cycle has gone so fast cause there are different things everyday! I like it! Scans one day, BT then next! Its all happening!! Good luck for ur BT tomorrow!!!
crafty - how are things with you? loving the new home? how are things with your son, the baby would be due soon yeh? how are you feeling about it all? i hope its getting a little easier xx
Mildez, Porsche, happybaby - how are you all?
Jupiter - welcome, sorry to hear of your loss and the tuff road you have been on! I hope we can help you thru the hard times and celebrate with you thru the good times! xx
saffy - how you feeling? has AF arrived in full flow?? or still spot? Are you testing? I think it sounds like you need a good holiday!! No time off since Jan!! Girl are you crazy!! Treat yourself!! You know you deserve it!!!
AFM - all good here, had more BT this morning and still no surge which is great so all on target to trigger tonight! had acupuncture today so feeling relaxed! feeling a little better about my UTD friend, or maybe just more excepting! DH and i have decided not to do another IUI cycle next mth, just going to go straight to IVF, dont wanna waste and more time with it, gunna get straight to it! Ive responded so well to the puregon so the nurse said in theory we should have a great result with IVF in terms of follies! Anyway, gives me a new focus for next mth! New plan!!!
Still trying to catch up: i've had hectic week cos i just finished a job i've been in for years. I now have a couple of weeks off before i start the next one.
Ferrals: What sh*tty luck! Hopefully the universe will now trade this for some really good karma on your test results. The universe owes you some good luck big time!
T-Hopes: Whoah girl, i know it's natural to think ahead but maybe you won't need another cycle IYKWIM. Excited for you to 'trigger' (it makes me think of a racehorse galloping off!) Good luck with that and with the other bit later in the week (i forget the technical terms, sorry!) You poor thing, crushed lungs does not sound fun.
Alice: Woot! You are off and running too. I have everything crossed for you. So hard with the pressure you're under for fights not to crop up. Glad you made it up and could enjoy your yummy feast!
Damprye: Happy Birthday!
Porsche: hope everything's going ok.
Sunbeam: Good luck with this cycle
Saffy: oh no! spotty wotty AF's a biatch! Hoping it's still implantation!
Jupiter: What a tough time you've had. I hope you are soon to get your BFP.
SammyP: Hard decision. I recently decided I couldn't put my life on hold any more 'in case' I got pg (bc i couldn't be sure it would work out). Not that i'm going to stop trying- well i have for a month or too but will be TTC after that- but i need to go ahead and do other things too. So i decided to change jobs because i was unhappy with my old one. If I do get pg (and get past 12wks) then i'll deal with the stress of telling my new employer i'm off on maternity leave. I don't know if this helps you think about the Bali holiday?
Crafty: Hi! good to 'see' you again!
Possum - hi lovey Congrats on the new job! Good for you! Nothing worse then facing a job, day after day, that your not happy with! I hope you enjoy your break between jobs and the new company look after you well! I pray its a fresh start for you with a BFP to follow not too far behind! xx
Hi everyone else! Hope your enjoying the weekend!
AFM - having a lazy sunday and catching up on all my taped shows! yay! Very excited at the moment cause were off to the AFL GrandFinal next Saturday! Go Sainters!! Praying for a great win and a BFP a few days later!! C'mon!! Triggered last night so all ready to rock for tomorrows procedure at 2.30pm! I POAS thin morning just to see those 2 lines from the trigger shot! Sooo exciting to see a bfp even if it is fake! lol !!
Congrats on the new job! Good for you! Nothing worse then facing a job, day after day, that your not happy with! I hope you enjoy your break between jobs and the new company look after you well! I pray its a fresh start for you with a BFP to follow not too far behind! xx
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