Thanks girls I am doing ok just have to keep reminding myself I can do this I can just need to get it right !

Ferrals thanks for the message I know what you are saying and I will not give up never never never not until my bits dry up and DH well as long as he is willing I am too !!!!
I wish that damn test of yours would hurry I am getting anxious for you !
Been stalking on the other thread can't beleive how far along everyone is its awsome to see and Dory so deserves her happy ending !
My friend Carrie who lost her bub in Dec and is now pg again is haveing a boy so happy for her as she has 2 girls and lost a boy last year !!
Well I am doing ok I think half my problem is I am scared incase it never happens so am trying to be prepaired for the worst but as DH says we can do it and we will just have to keep going,
Can anyone tell me if you do an opk and don't get a full darker line to show LH surge does that mean your not ovulating at all or if its the faintest faintest line then does it just mean LH surge is not as strong as it should be ? just wondering as I tried the Clear blue fertility monitor and could never get a result and now the opks are very very faint I mean only just there the last 2 days !!!