Cycle delayed due to clinic stuff up - then bleeding today!
Hi everyone,
Good luck to all those on the 2ww and heading towards egg pickup.
I was due for egg pick up next week but when I had my scan last Tuesday (ready to start the injections) they noted that my blood tests (which were done on the 10th of Jan) showed I had low immunity to rubella so it was recommended that I get reimmunised and then wait another 28 days before doing this IVF cycle. I was furious with my clinic for not telling me sooner.
Anyway I did have one injection on the Tuesday before we decided to delay treatment. Today I started bleeding (I am still on Synarel twice daily so shouldn't be getting a period at all and even if I was I wouldn't be due for atleast another 10 days). I cried on the toilet because I didn't understand how this could happen or what it meant. I rang the clinic and they said it might be due to having had the one injection and then stopping as it could have the same effect as going on the pill and then stopping (in which case you normally get a period 3 or 4 days later but this is now 8 days since I had the injection). Anyway they seem to think it is nothing to worry about. I'm not so sure and wish they would investigate a bit more because I don't want to get up to next month and find out my body hasn't been doing what it's meant to do and they could have figured it out now and changed my treatment. I'm extremely unimpressed with my clinic - Ballarat IVF.
I'm feeling really frustrated on so many levels and I haven't even properly started my first IVF cycle yet (though I started paying the clinic in Feb). At this stage I'm due for egg pick up the week of the 10th of May.
I can relate to comments about struggling being around other people's babies etc. I have found it hard since I started trying and friends will get pregnant on their first attempt of AI (donor insemination) and only started talking about thinking about having a baby a few months earlier and it seems so unfair when I started my donor search in Dec 06 and wasn't able to start AI (donor insemination) until Jan 09 and only managed 3 attempts in 13 months due to crazy cycles and now am trying IVF... it's hard to be happy for them when you think - but why can't I be that lucky! It must be very hard for (I can't remember who it was... was it kmmm?) the woman who had to help look after the 19yr old's 4 month old baby... because you would be thinking - but why did she get pregnant and I can't?
I haven't even started yet and I feel like I want to give up! I'm so tired of this rollercoaster ride. I told my ex that I was thinking of stopping and was asked would I actually feel okay with that... or would I regret it later on when I was too old to have a baby (I turn 37 in June). I said I know I would regret it because I already regret leaving it this long... I wish I had the guts to start trying before I turned 30. But I don't know if I have the energy to keep trying. I admire you women who keep going back for heartbreak after heartbreak with IVF, and still manage to hold onto hope. I was originally hoping to do 2 or possibly 3 attempts but I don't know any more. How do you do it?
Lori
DD 13
Started donor search Dec 06, Started donor insemination Jan 09, Started IVF process Feb 10.
Hi Ladies
Ive been MIA for a few days - trying to get back to normal life.
Hope you all had a wonderful Easter.
Got BT HCG result of 3 last week so no curette needed, feel a bit because after all we went through its now all over.
Thinking Im taking a bit of a break from BB. Arranging holiday to Tassie as well in May which will be good.
Wishing you wonderful ladies all the very best. Hoping to see lots of BFP's before long. GL all!
KMM, so was your ET on the 6th? If so, maybe you'll join me in the TWW. It's very quiet in there ATM. I'm just rattling around keeping myself company
Dreamrise, sorry to hear that your cycle was cancelled. I can't believe your clinic didn't test for rubella beforehand, as for our clinic it was one of a handful of routine tests we had to undertake before we could start IVF. Re your comment about paying in Feb but now perhaps not doing a cycle till May, they should offer you the option of keeping what you've paid in credit or refunding it to you. Just a thought. IVF is certainly a very difficult road, and it doesn't get any easier unfortunately when faced with multiple non-successes. For me, the one advantage of having done a few cycles is you at least know what to do and what is coming. Chin up. Take time to think things through. You'll reach the right decision for you and DH. May sounds like a long way away but it will be here before you know it.
Hey Loops, enjoy your upcoming holiday! So totally understandable that you're feeling sad after what you've been through. You handled it so admirably.
dreamrise, I'm sorry to hear your cycle was postponed. I just wanted to reassure you that you will normally get AF on Synarel during an IVF cycle. Normally you start the synarel at CD21 or 7dpo in the cycle before the IVF and then start stims after AF arrives. Synarel can delay AF though. But I agree it's worth discussing with your doctor to prevent any more avoidable delays. I hope you can get a satisfactory explanation from them.
Juniper76, and Brunette, thanks for your support. I did have Rubella tested for in Jan as part of my routine tests and was told that all my results for everything was fine. Then when I had my scan ready to check my body was responding to synarel and that I was ready to start on Gonal, they suddenly advised me that the results they had known for over 6 weeks showed I had low immunity to Rubella so it was recommended I get re-immunised and wait 28 days before starting on Gonal. I'm ****ed because the clinic had these results since mid Feb but didn't tell me until my scan on the 30th of March.
Apparently the doctor highlighted the results on my file but didn't follow up with me and everytime I rang and spoke to any of the nurses they apparently assumed I knew these results. So when I asked "are my test results back and is everything okay?" they answered "yes everything is fine"!!!
I started on Synarel on the 15th March, so had my first period after that on the 21st of March. Thats why I was so confused by this bleeding... because it is only day 19 of this cycle (and my previous ovulatory cycles have tended to be around 35 days so really this is only around the time I should have been ovulating on a normal cycle - not bleeding). Anyway hopefully what the clinic said is right and it is just a response to the fact that I did have one injection of Gonal on the 30th of March and then stopped.
Hopefully the next 20 days of waiting will run smoothly and by the time I have my next scan my body will be on track for me to start the Gonal properly.
Lori
DD - 13yr old
Started donor search Dec 06, Started donor insemination Jan 09, Started IVF process feb 10
trubabe: whats wrong with those lovely gown photos being on FB, LOL. i am sure she appreciated your visit. good luck to you
lairdoz: have some great b'day parties. hope all goes well and you have a good break. x
brunette: ouch for the bruising, are you pinching your skin and holding a little bit of a fat roll, presuming you have one, LOL. as this helps to not bruise as much? might help if your not doing it already. good luck for the rest of this cycle and pray for a BFP.
juniper: hi, i hope all is going well with you.
mumwannabe: i love the visualisation thing, prob a good idea. my acu lady said i shouldn't think of it as a live embryo being put in as this makes the BFN worse. dunno what i am supposed to think instead. good luck to you and hope for a BFP. x
renee: sounds good. what a long cycle that is, wow. hope the time away does you good, and i'm all for the BFP with no IVF, but it is not possible with us. darn it. LOL. good luck to you though.
kmm: i am sure we all do crazy things to help our little ones to snuggle in and stay in there, i have heard about lucky charms even being used, whatever works for you. good luck to you.
dreamrise: sounds like you need a big hug. hope all goes well and you'll be doing it in no time at all. try to be positive, although it is hard to do it sometimes. x x
loops : tassie fixes a lot of probs. maybe a holiday is just what you need. sending you a really big hug. x o
anyone else who i have forgotten: sorry for that. good luck whatever part of a cycle or FET or TWW your on.
AFM: well i have now picked up the synarel and start sniffing tomorrow, woohoo.
DH and i have a heap of paperwork to fill out and gotta get BT done soon as well. just to make sure we're all still good.
i have a scan booked in on the 19th to make sure that i am not going to ovulate, then i suppose i'll start jabbing. i love that part. NOT. but was ok with giving myself injections.
DH still wants to wait a bit more but the thing is there will always be something getting in the way. and it'll never happen if we wait for the right time to do it.
Hi ladies sorry I've been MIA lately but I have been sort of reading what is going on. It all sounds really good and quite a few of you are heading towards your TWW or in the TWW. I'm sure some great news is just around the corner and the ball of BFP's will start to roll really soon.
Loops so happy to hear that you are finally on the mend after everything you have been through. Enjoy your holiday let your body heal and I'm sure that you'll get there pretty soon.
Marcellus that your criptic messages mean what I think they do
Brunette good luck honey hopefully your little ones' are burrowing in for the next 9 months
To everyone else
AFM well after a full blood work up by my immunologist I can finally get back on track. Have an appoitment with FS next Friday to work out my medications and my next FET will be mid May. Things have worked out great and I will probably only need to add lose dose asprin to my cycle to reduce the chances of clotting. TMI as I'm currently cycling at the moment DH and I have decided to give it a natural try so this morning I took some lose dose asprin and we will see what happens. So i guess nect week I'll be on a natural TWW.
dreamrise, hope you are ok. big hugs to you. good luck you will be on the right track soon.
loops, enjoy your time out. i hope you holiday gives you a well earned rest.
JBM, good luck sniffing & good luck for your scan. my blood test is also on the 19th, i think brunette's is too (?) it will be a big day. and already it seems to be taking so long to arrive.
Brunette ~ Thanks hun, will do. I hope you got your tablets. Did you ring your clinics' after hours emergency number. My clinic was really good when I ran out of Synarel although it wasnt a weekend.
JBM ~ thanks for the hug xo. So happy you're on the way. GL with your sniffing and jabbing.
Terry ~ Thanks I will! GL on your natural TWW and all the best for May if not. FX
Kmm ~ Thanks hun, I can't waitfor our hol and a break. Hope you're doin well in TWW, FX for a BFP!
CK ~ FX for Wed!
Lori ~ GL with it all! FX for you
Trueblue ~ Hi chicky. Probably best you order as some chemists have it and others will have to get it in. I think it should only take 1 or 2 days to come in. I ran out of Synarel mid cycle if you remember and my nurse said Chemist Warehouse in Trar stock it so I rang them 1st thing and got the last bottle. So perhaps try there.
Im excited you're on your way, GL hun xoxo
Hi to anyone ive missed and all the best everyone!
xo
um got a quick q guys I'd call my nurse but being a sunday ... I am on the pill to get in sync and so skipped a period but just went to the loo TMI alert: there is what looks like the brown very startings of my normal period I am half way through the second packet of the pill so shouldn't be anywhere near getting my period and am meant to be still taking it till the 20th. I have been taking it every day at the same time. will this bugger everything up if I get my period? help am starting to freak out a little
Loops 12: I'm glad you got your HCG of 3 - its a small conciliation not having to have a D&C as you still lost a precious lil embie, but you've gotta look at any positive, no matter how small in this game!
I got AF, Day 30, half way through my TWW, which i didnt really find as a surprise, I don't really even feel upset, just the normal constant disappointment and anger now - rather than emotional and upset.
I dont like what this life of IVF is turing me into - I think I'm going a bit numb to all of it - not fully feeling the highs and the lows? Maybe its a coping mechanism - I dont know???
Has anyone discussed with their partner a limit to all of this, all of the attempts and surgerys and drugs and heart break? I think about it more and more often with each failed cycle, or new diagnoses...
What a depressing lil post, sorry guys
Kmm & Brunette: I hope your lil embies are doing well and are tunnelling in!!!
MWB - DH and I decided from the word go that we would try four stim cycles and if that didn't work, it obviously wasnt meant to be. However, if attempt #4 comes and goes, may be a different story.
Sorry been MIA, been crazy busy, sick and blah. Had absolute killer migraines to the point where I couldn't get out of bed without wanting to spew - nice - topped off with the fact that our 16 year old niece has just had a baby at the weekend. Man this sucks. On a brighter note, our little emby comes out of the cold on Friday morning, FX it survives for ET that afternoon. Please make it little emby . Sorry that I go away for ages and come back with a me post but I'll be better next time, honest!!!
Mellissa: fx so tight for you hope the little snow bub is a winter olympian
MWB" Hugs chick the whole process certainly takes it's toll on you maybe you need to take a little holiday with dh
Has anyone discussed with their partner a limit to all of this, all of the attempts and surgerys and drugs and heart break? I think about it more and more often with each failed cycle, or new diagnoses...
Have decided that five tries is all that I have in me - I am currently on the fourth try... the drugs take a lot out of me and the $$ also plays a role...
Cycle delayed due to clinic stuff up - then bleeding today!
because after all we went through its now all over.
Hoping to see lots of BFP's before long. GL all!
Hi to everyone else!
that your criptic messages mean what I think they do
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