LT TTC & Assisted Conception Jan-Feb 2010

[WaitingAwaiting]

Hi ladies

Hope you're all well! Just need to vent before my brain implodes...

I went to the drs for a diagnostic ultrasound on Saturday morning (which much to my shock included an internal which I was NOT prepared for in the slightest!) The woman was like "It's really recommended" so I went ahead but the whole I time I was staring at the ceiling thinking "Please don't judge me! Please don't judge me!" lol silly I know but I'm generally more...well kept!

The woman who was doing the ultrasound made all the noises I hate most in the world..."Ahhh...hmmm...mmmm....hmmm...huh....ahhh. ...and you haven't had a m/c....hmmmm...." which made me think bad things...followed by her comment "You better come pick these up in a couple of hours" ****!!!! I spent the next 1.5hrs pacing around the shops thinking "HOW ON EARTH DOES EVERYONE I WALK PAST TODAY HAVE A BABY!!!"

Finally managed to get in to see my doctor tonight (after waiting 1.5hrs!!) and she told me...my results are NORMAL!! WTF was with the lady at the imaging place?! Geez...

I now have a referal letter to go see a FS on the 19th January who can hopefully tell me what the problem is (my dr still thinks it's endo).

Not sure what to do next...I realised the other day that this month marks 2yrs of TTC...I hope this appt with the FS gives me some answers...I want my baby

Thanks for reading. Know it's nothing major but I always thought that by this time I'd have at least my first bub...and my heart aches when I see others with theirs, women getting pregant by walking past a guy in the street who sneezes (ok it's not logical but neither is my lack of baby!), women aborting because "they're not ready" - and I don't mean this comment generally, I actually know someone who's done this TWICE IN SIX MONTHS! *sigh*

Sorry for the rambling but thanks again for reading my insanity for the day...

[xx Rob xx]

Waiting awaiting I think the whole everyone has a baby that walks past is so true. Whilst TTC everyone around me either got PG, had a baby, or knew someone who did aargh.

But seriously I actually learnt that for my own sanity I needed to accept that it;s ok to feel like that. I personally think we just get so focused on our goal we zone out of everything else so it magnifies the fact.

I had a close friend that had a baby and I couldn't even bear to go and visit her I felt so awful, in the end my neice had a baby shower and all her friends were PG and I thought OMG what have i done coming here but you know it was so good for me actually.

It was at that point I realised that what will be will be. I just have to wait and if it's meant to be it will. Sometimes it better to just take things a step at a time. It reduces stress and healps your body, I am absolutely positive it's what helped us achieve a pregnancy. I did post a rather large post earlier on about the steps and as you are new its best to start off this way. Every step you take and make is an achievement so nothing you do is a failure. Some cycles will take different paths for whatever reason but just remember it's all part of your journey. I wish you all the luck in the world for your journey and hope you get your BFP soon :0).

[WeeMansMummy]

Waiting awaiting- i think some sonographers are a disgrace how they get people worried, one told my friend she either had an empty sack or had a m/c when she was actually quite healthily pg.
Anywho... if you were distressed by the internal im supprised they didn't offer for you to put in the probe yourself, i have had a million of them and not once has any technitian seen my hoo hoo. And with IVF i quite enjoy them cause you get to see all the follies!! Its amazing being able to see what is going on inside you!
Good luck with your fs apt.
x

[xx Rob xx]

Waiting awaiting- i think some sonographers are a disgrace how they get people worried, one told my friend she either had an empty sack or had a m/c when she was actually quite healthily pg.
Anywho... if you were distressed by the internal im supprised they didn't offer for you to put in the probe yourself, i have had a million of them and not once has any technitian seen my hoo hoo. And with IVF i quite enjoy them cause you get to see all the follies!! Its amazing being able to see what is going on inside you!
Good luck with your fs apt.
x

Jaki I totally agre. I had an early scan to confirm pregnancy, which as I'm in the country I had done at the local hospital instead of driving 2 hours to the clinic. Anyway the sonographer said there were 2 sacs. 1 was clear and had a heart beat and the other was less defined and didn't. In the actual write up they said 1 sac 1 fetus. Whih we were still happy with.

However our clinic rang after receiving the results, asking us to have another u/s as it was too early 2 exclude twins. Which means for now it is still possible to be having twins as one develops behind the other and the heart starts beating spontaneously. We are happy with 1, we decidied to wait til the 12 week scan to find out only because I am so sick I couldn't cope with the 2 hour drive, but the point is sonographers shouldn't have said anything about the 2nd sac, then I wouldn't be wondering and going mental. We still have a 2 and 1/2 week wait and its horrible, i just want to know how many.

[JustOneMore]

xxRobxx Just wanted to say thank you for your support in this thread.
I did read your post about steps and have printed it out and put it next to my computer.

mitf: Thanks for your info on acupuncture. I am going to give it a go

[WaitingAwaiting]

Thank you all for your lovely posts.

I've had a lot of people around me get pregnant lately and I do get caught up in my "goal" and get stuck in my own head sometimes. I am very clucky and just look longingly at the happy couples with their babies and I get a bit down in the dumps about it and then I feel bad about feeling bad which makes me feel worse! lol

My dr said that next time she sees me she's sure I'm going to be all "round and happy" which made me laugh and feel slightly more positive it's just the waiting until I get to the FS...If this is what I'm like with only a one week wait the TWW will be a killer!

My dr said that the FS will probably do a PAP & schedule me for a lap. Anybody have any preparation suggestions for my initial consultation?? Any questions I should be asking or anything like that??

Thanks again everyone - I truely appreciate your support.

[fatgirlslim]

Arrgghhh... I am so, so scared of going for this second blood and scan this morning - I am petrified that they will have to cancel my cycle because my follies aren't progressing as fast as they should be... I'm reeeeaaally working myself up over it!!!



How long have your guys had to wait from FSH injections to EPU???

L x