Very sad news on here I too could never think of leaving my kids its so sad when some feel the only way out is to commit suicide, My uncle did it when he was only 43 and left his new grandson of only 4mnths old at the time, my cousin (his son ) never got over it and ended up killing himself driving his sports car too fast and full of alcohol at the age of 38 so sad, he left a 14yr old and a 12 yr old at the time so left his kids feeling like he had felt after his dad did himself in sometimes it goes on for a few generations !
Mildez sorry you know someone too how sad this world is at times !!!
4 days to go till my apt not sure how I feel about it now its nearly here, had a text to confirm I was going sat morning so had my chance to cancel and didn't !
Alice I hope you can find the strength to listen to your brother and his story sometime it may help you in the end ! I struggle everytime I speak to my son in the UK they are now 24wks pregnant and its so hard but for them I have to make the effort and hopefully they will do the same for me on of these days, don't feel bad about your diet I am the worlds worst ! for bad eating habbits ( fish and chips by the beach a few hours ago ! ) not really good when I need to loosed at least 15KG !!!!
We can't be perfect we need some nice treats in life !
Thanks Crafty, I just can't face it yet but I know what you are saying. In the past I've found it hard to face the pregnancies but usually OK once the bub comes so it's good they don't live close. Actually with the people in my life who are actually sensitive and aware of our situation, the pregnancies aren't hard either. My brother is not one of those people. Just a bit sick of the circus of family events that revolve around him and his kids. I love them all dearly but would be nice to share the light with my other brother and I some times. I know he'd be thrilled for us if it happened and I don't want them to be grieving and sad but honestly my SIL says she doesn't really want another one so if she gets another one I will feel like punching something out of pure frustration! You know...like a tree or something :/
Oh and thanks for your encouragement re the diet. I'm being 99.999% good with it but tonight there is a chocolate frog in the drawer that is calling my name and I'm not sure I can resist much longer! Agghhhh !!!
Good luck with your appointment! I had my heart in my mouth when I logged on just now and saw your name in the post - honestly Crafty, this BFP that is in my mind for you just won't go away and I can't explain it - so hope I am right!!
And for all of us waiting in here, I am hoping so damn hard we get the break we all so desperately want very very soon. We deserve it after all this hardship!!
Sunbeam, when are you testing? How are you going with the TWW?
Ferrals, have you found a place yet? How'd the court case go (or is it coming up?). Hoping you'll get a surprise this month
Mildez, that's awful that you also know someone who has suicided. The pain of it never goes away, poor poor kids.
Porsche, Sevie, MatthewsMum - you're in my thoughts. Hope all is well with you.
Love and hugs to everyone and sorry for anyone I have missed (including the lurkers!!)
I've been reading your posts just haven't been in the mood to reply. I'm on another forum as well and it's really doing my head in. I really can't cope at the moment. All these BFP and I'm still yet to O. Getting a bit down in the dumps about it. Haven't had a + OPK and I'm now CD24. I'm really frustrated not only because we want to get UTD but because it will delay Af and then delay IVF. I can't understand why I haven't O'd I took clomid and well it seems to me like it hasn't worked for the first time.
Alice-The owner of our house has put it on the market for half a million (what an idiot) there is no way he will get that he has tried to sell it twice before and failed he is an oversea's person (don't want to use the other word in case i offend people) who has unrealistic expectations on a beautiful huge house that is unfinished and needs a fair bit of work and the houses around us have sold for less and they are finished with landscaping ect so we are just packing and taking our time i want to try to hang on until the end of july when we get our tax back.
And the court case is on the 20th of july but we might be able to avoid it because i have been putting my foot down when it concerns DH's ex and not letting her manipulate him we have court papers that say we have his daughter every 2nd weekend and half of all school holidays we are to get her fridays after school and return her to school monday mornings well the ex will text and say i can't drop emily off friday because i have plans it will have to be saturday and i say NO be here friday as the court papers say or not at all and then after school holidays we sometimes don't see emily for 6 weeks so when the ex texts and says i will drop emily over this weekend i say NO we had no idea when you are going to bring emily to us so we made plans to go away (i bluffed) so if you followed the court papers as you are suposed to we would no when we are having her so if you want a babysitter find someone else otherwise we want emily every 2nd weekend as the court has ordered.
And emily has started asking her mum why she wont let her see her dad so i think the ex is starting to feel guilty because she rang and said can we forget the past and just do what the court papers say and we have had emily for the last two weekends to make up for some lost time.
So fingers crossed she sticks to it and we can avoid court one less stress off my shoulders.
Or she rang the courts and found out we had a contrevention order on her and the papers were going to be served on her soon and she sh#t herself because she would get a fine and a bond.
Crafty-you will be fine with your appointment just go in there without having unrealistic expectations don't expect them to say yep you are as fertile as a 20 year old and we will have you pregnant in no time expect them to say you are at the end of your childbearing days and it will be tough but there is still eggs in there and you are still ovulating so there is still a good chance so lets give you a hand at getting pregnant as quick as possible while you still have some good eggs left even if its just U/S to track your follies and doing an IUI on the right day that will increase your chances we don't want to waste or miss any of our eggs do we.
I am looking forward to what they say and don't go in there nervous you are paying for it and it is your body and you know what you want so you go get it.
Porsche-I know hun i have those days to i feel for you we are here for you i am also in the older womens thread and some times i feel like it is so depressing i was also in the m/c thread but had to leave because there was to many BFP with all the newbies who just joined and i just lost the plot so i had to leave.
AFM-6dpo for me and couldnt give a rats rahzoo don't want to think about testing just waiting for AF to see if i made the june IVF list.
But i will say i noticed some cramping yesterday at work and i had way more than normal c/m and just feel headachey my skin is really dry and i have been going to the toilet a fair bit both ways and have lost a kilo in 2 days so i must be coming down with something.
hi everyone ,porshe-sorry,remember hope whispers to keep trying....afm-fet is on the 19th,hope everything goes okay with the thawing process now,my dr wont be there,dr mcgrath will be doing the transfer(i have never met or heard anything about him,has anyone else?)
Ferals and Matthews Mum thank you for your thougths I guess it's good to know we aren't alone. And I'm glad I have you guys to vent to because I know that you all understand. Doesn't make it any easier though does it? Hope is such a great thing to have although I have lost a bit of it over the last 3 months. I'm just about to throw the thermometer and OPK's out the window and leave certain parts of certain forums alone.
I hope your FET goes well Matthews Mum. I'll have all my fingers and toes crossed for you! I can't wait to get to your stage.
Ooh half way through your TWW Alice. I know what you mean about not reading too much into your symptoms. I really hope they mean something fantastic for you!
Is anyone with Queesnland Fertility Group?
Last edited by Porsche; June 15th, 2010 at 07:03 AM.
Good one Ferrals, sounds like you have sorted that situation out with the ex - putting down very clear boundaries like that takes away all the confusion and possibility for conflict 'cause you all know what's meant to be going on and who is sticking to it and who isn't - I'm sure Emily is grateful and now she can see where the problem is too - with her Mum and not with her Dad and you. Be shame to have to have a court case for no reason - not good for any of you. Hope you're not coming down with anything serious though it's the time of year when we all start getting bugs. Hope you get on the list for June and don't have to wait til July.
Porsche, I understand what you are saying, just seems so unfair to have to keep waiting and waiting and trying and to feel like you're not getting anywhere. I've never been on Clomid but I have read in other threads women who've had problems with it, no consolation for you, I know. I hope you O soon so you can either get UTD or start your AF and get the IVF ball rolling. Hang in there x
MatthewsMum - a date, at last! Ok so 19th it is - that's less than a week now, how exciting. Fingers crossed that little blastie will be snuggling in and sticky tight this time next week! I had one transfer without my usual doc and at the time I thought it might be good just because every FS is a bit different in how they do things and you never know if it might make a difference! Fingers, toes, legs, arms, everything crossed for you. I so want to see you out of this forum and into the BB groups (with regular visits, of course
Sunbeam - how're you going in the TWW?
Sevie, Hubba_Bubba, Trea - how are you all? Or am I confused with the other thread?
AFM, have realised that if I were taking my temp vaginally (so if TMI), my chart would be looking much better because there is about a .2 difference - so my 36.6 would be 36.8 which would be great so I'm going to start doing that and I'm going to revise all my other charts to take in tomorrow to see if she thinks that I'm doing better. Last week I didn't go because the week before she said there wasn't much about my charts she was happy with. Talk about a great bed-side manner. Anyway, if she can help me, I'll put up with some bluntness but honestly when you are feeling a bit fragile about it all, it can really make you feel blue.
Porsche, I think we posted at the same time (and think you might have me confused with Ferrals ) but I'm with you on wanting to throw the thermometer out the window!!
MurryCod, I am following you in the other thread so I know how you are, just counting down the days to the scan - can't wait to hear how you go. x
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