When we start out this journey nobody evers knows what is going to happen we just presume it will. The initial shock of having to have AI or IVF is a shock to our system not knowing what is going to happen when everything is taken out of our hands and put in the hands of doctors.I have told numerous people that I am not strong and personally I'm not going through 19 IVF attempts losing 2 babies, spending numerous amounts of time in hospital being poked and prodded. We find this strength not because we want to because we want a baby.
Would we give up because it is too painful emotionally sometimes we do and then sometimes we take a break to feel the urge even more.
Are we born this way probably not but we grab hold of what help we can get and accept it. Strong when month after month BFN keep appearing yep cause realistically having your heart ripped out each month knowing that you have done everything possible even to the point of putting an embie back and still nothing.
Most of us still work and fit appointments around this life and often pretending that things are ok on the outside but deep down well we all knows how that feels.
This ride isn't fun but we do it and because we are willing to put ourselves out there month after month gives us strength.
Strength to be sucessful in achieving parenthood.
Talking to others in the same boat gives me strength
The support of my husband and doctors gives me strength
And looking at all the wonderful babies born through AI gives me strength.
Its a different world but it is ours..throw someone into it that hasn't lives it 24 hrs a day for years.
Bec
And I'm attaching my siggie so people can get the strength of my little girl