Well... maybe not 'proud' - but... I have put a lot of thought into it and have decided to POAS through my 2ww.. and not beat myself up over it.

It all started after the conversation I had with the Embryologist... I was so down about it - and prior to that, I was so elated and hopeful... I feel like I did the right thing by POAS... I was so caught up in the propects of this little bean in my tummy... that if that kind of behaviour went on for 2 weeks... I would have been inconsolable when I got that call after BT...

I tested 5dp4dt... and the 7dp4dt, and 8dp4dt and all have come up flat negative. I know theres a small chance that it's to early, but I have pretty much accepted the fact that my little bean, like his/her embie-siblings didn't make it. I am not going to say that I am happy, or ok... but I am going to be able to deal better than what I would be if I was entertaining the idea that I was pg all along...

I've been thinking long and hard - and I am wondering why you choose not to POAS? I am really wondering what you all think the pro's and con's are...???

I figure.. if I have to pay 3k for an ICSI cycle this year - whats $100 more in HPTs?? lol... next time - I am going to test right from the beginning so I can see the trigger leave my system - and follow it along... I think.

It's been quite tough the last few days... hearing about Moonflower and Murraycod's BFN... devastating... it's just so unfair...

I am really worried about none of my 6 embies reaching viable blast stage... very concerning - does anyone know if that can change cycle to cycle??

MOONFLOWER - if you're around - hope you're doing ok...

MURRAYCOD - I am sooooo sorry to hear about your result hun... it just seems so, so unfair. I hope that your snowbaby is wonderful and strong... and that you dont have to do another cycle for a looooong time.

BJ - I hate the crinone gel also... I am actually more over just having to *do* it every night... I can't wait til next week when I can just stop... and these stupid estrogen patches are irritating my skin..!

LEABIE - wow! you've done well! Haha... I can't wait to finally see some BFP in here! It's about due!!!

Sorry to anyone I've missed!

Be really interested to hear your thoughts about my POAS theory!

L xx