Hey FGS, sorry you aren't feeling great, but your embie is in the most conjusive place to growing and since he was also the best looking one, surely he has every chance in the wold
MC- I hope you are hanging in there, we all have everything crossed for tomorrow.
BJ- congrats on being pupo!!
I also had a 4 cell, day 2, grade 2 embryo transferred today. My doctor didn't use ultrasound for the transfer either, but I got to see my embie on the screen before hand. I am already feeling loopy and actually had passing thoughts of peeing on a stick before
FGS - Aw honey, I know it's hard but YOU CAN DO IT. I can't believe the embryologist said that to you! What good did that do anyone?? Please just try and be positive (and DON'T POAS!!) because we actually have no control over what is going to happen.....which I think is the worst part of this journey. But so many have gotten positive results with not such great looking embryo's and then there are perfect ones that don't stick. To learn to fly you have to risk falling. I know you think that you wouldn't be able to go through this again, I thought the same thing and here I am on my 3rd. Sometimes I wonder if I am just a glutton for punishment and am just slowly going to go mad but something inside me just won't let me give up....I know that I am supposed to be a mum. You are too, otherwise you wouldn't be here so it will happen! Stay strong and positive for your little emby ok. Sorry for rambling
Sharee - Welcome to the mad house! I'm glad that everything wen't well for you today. When is your BT? Mine is the 10th. Which may as well be a lifetime! lol Hope you are having a nice rest up this arvo and are being looked after by your DH.
MC - Hope you are hanging in there. Good luck for tomorrow xxx
MF - Still thinking of you. Hope you guys are hanging on.
Sharee, to the mad house. I hope that you enjoy your stay here. I know from personal experience the ladies are all wonderful and will really help you get through this.
Dearest MC, how could I let today go past without wishing you every good thing. I'm looking forward to some good news from you soon.
FGS, I can't tell you how grieved I am to hear that you were given that bad news about your embies. And more so that you're emotional state has taken a battering. It's not supposed to be like this.
To all of you who have sent me some comforting words and understanding, thank you so much. From the bottom of my heart. I would never have survived the past two weeks without you all. I'm still hurting but I know that time is what I need.
I'll be popping back in to check and see who is going to give me good news! I can't think of any women more deserving of pregnancy that all of you. Strong, kind, thoughtful and with just a tiny bit of crazy (that comes after the first week of being in here!!).
God bless you all. And thank you so very, very much.
On a funny note, just realised the name of my last post is manhunt commission
I'd like to pretend that has some deep meaning, but I'm pretty sure I typed the verification words in the wrong spot
Sharee you just nearly made me wet myself.....that was the best laugh I've had in ages, exactly what I needed! I noticed that before and just thought......um ok, maybe I missed something. Hahahaha. Nice work xxx
Sharee, thank the lord I am wearing a panty liner, cuz I did literaly laugh that hard I dribbled!!! (not from my mouth...........) Anyway......
Fgs, as much as the embryologist was straight to the fact, no corners on the edge, you know that they are giving you the best possible chance, not a medium one, not a half hearted one, a propper chance at getting this right. It would be awfull, to go through all this, to find out in the end that you weren't given the best possible chance to fall PG.
That litle blasty that is inside your tummy right now, is the healthiest fattest and strongest chance up to date to help you fullfill your dream to become a mother.
Honey, it does suck that you have no snowbabies, but take 1 cycle at a time, and each day as it's own journey, and you will be so much stronger than I have been.
BJ81, not long untill the 10th............. we will all be here for you, you will be amased at how slow days go so quickly XXXX
We are all here for you XX
Share, don't even pee on that stick!!!! Allow me, atleast for this month, to hold the record of POAS and freaking out!! XXX!!!XXX
Moonflower, I have been thinking of you all day honey. Allow yourself to greive as much as you need to, I promise I will be here to help dust you off when you are ready. Take care, and keep in touch XXXXX
Well my BT is tomorrow, not that excited or hopefull, but I will do it. Thank you ladies for all of your support over the last 3 weeks, I have been a complete nutcase of a mess. Just glad tomorrow it will all be over. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Hi I'm just popping in to wish murraycod good luck with the BT today. I do hope you are pleasantly surprised! I'll be keeping a look out. Good luck to everyone else waiting for news too, it's such a hard wait, you remind me of what it's like. I look forward to being back in the TWW in a couple of months, hopefully by that time you will all have moved into the PG thread! Sal
Thanks Sal XXX Got my bloods done thismorning, results shall be in thisavo sometime I will let you know how it goes XXX
As confident as I am about knowing what the results are going to be, I am still so nervouse to hear the phone ring
The old saying, 'What we don't know doesn't hurt', yeah, wonder if the person that made that saying, actually ever had to endure a TWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hello - just popping in to wish those of you waiting for results and in the dreaded tww lots and lots of luck. I hope it all goes well - and meanwhile, step away from the POAS!!!
Thank You Lomndonmiss, I hope you and bubba are doing well honeyXXXXX
FGS, I hope you are feeling more confident with your situation today, remember, 1 day at a time my friend XXX How are you feeling?
My BT was Neg, no suprise, but DH and I are at peace, to close that chapter, and excited to start another.
Thank You to everybody for your support through my maddness and insane days, love you all XX
Goodluck to all in, and comming up to your TWW, I hope we get some juicy BFP"s in here very soon XXXXX
Will be keeping an eye out on all of you X
Take care, and take it easy.
Hey MC. I'm sorry to hear that you got a -ve result. But I'm glad that you and your DH are coping with it so well. I know you had resigned yourself to that result days ago but it still can't be easy to hear it.
I'm really pleased also that you are excited to be thinking about and planning your next move. My DH and I aren't up to that stage yet. We're going away this weekend to decompress. I must say I'm better today but not great. I know we will get there. It's what happens when you go in expecting nothing and then swing completely to the other side. That's me alright - one or the other. No half arsed feelings and decisions!
FGS, I haven't forgotten you. Hope you are doing good and that you're coping with your tww better than the two previous crazy broads (MC & myself!!).
BJ81 and Sharee, still thinking of you both and trust you are as insane as the rest of us!
Ladies, I wish you all a fabulous weekend. Enjoy yourselves whatever you get up to and I wouldn't mind seeing some stories of illegal shananigens on Monday!
Bee good and if you can't be good, don't get caught!
Hope you don't mind if I jump in here, I'm just back from holidays and have been catching up on the news.
MC - I'm soooo so sorry babe that you didn't get the result you deserve. Its just so damn unfair, isn't it? You don't know it, but you've been an inspiration for me, and your positive attitude is infectious. Keep your chin up sweetie.
Moonflower - sending big hugs to you reading your posts over the last week made me so sad. I hope that you and DH are enjoying your weekend away, I have found that a change of scenery works wonders for the soul (perhaps the biggest thing for me its getting away from the BBT charting program!). Know that you are not alone in your heartbreak, you have the support of all of us crazy chicks :-)
FGS - am waiting with bated breath for your news, and have everything crossed for you! Your little embie is in the safest and best place it can be... (especially being away from that Negative Nelly embryologist can't believe she said that!)
Sharee - Welcome! I too had a giggle about the title of your old post - at least the words have SOME sort of meaning - unlike "eggplant umbrella" or the like!
BJ81 - Hi! Hope your 2WW is going OK.
Hi to anyone that I've missed!
AFM - I'm coming towards the end of my 2WW, and I must say, its been the best one I've had, coz I JUST HAVEN'T CARED this time!! Its crazy!! After the last failed IUI, I said to myself "stuff it all to hell" (after I'd stopped crying uncontrollably). We were going away on holidays so couldn't book in for another IUI until next month, and I decided I wasn't going to count days (too much), or take my temperature (too regularly) on this natural cycle. And DEFINITELY no BBT charting. God, it was bliss! Back from holidays today, and realised it must be getting towards the pointy end of things. I think I'm due on Tuesday? Or Wednesday? That's only if my cycle behaves itself, which it undoubtedly WON'T! I'm resisting the urge to POAS, but I can already feel my resolve fading.... noooo... Hehe! I'm sure I'll get a goodly amount of stressing in before this cycle is done
Sorry for raving on! Hope you are all well and hanging in there!
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MC - I'm so sorry about your result but it sounds like you are handling it in an absolutely inspirational way! I'm so glad that you are excited to go again. Loving your never give up attitude honey. Big big 's xxx
MF - I hope that you and DH had a good (as can be expected), therapeutic weekend away. Sometimes its good to just get out of the house and recoup. Hopefully you will feel a little better with each day that passes.
FGS - How are you going?? Hope you are feeling a bit more positive and things aren't dragging by too slowly for you.
Sharee - Are you hanging in there with me? How are you feeling? This is going to be the longest 2ww ever I swear!
Leabie - Hi! that you won't even have to do an IUI next month, how good would that be!
AFM - I HATE I repeat HATE crinone gel, I had forgotten how hideous it it Have been having some dull cramping over the past few days which I'm guessing is from the gel and my BB's are still really tender but otherwise am feeling pretty good. You know sometimes I hate knowing so much about what is going on in there. Knowing that if everything goes according to plan my little 'lone ranger' (emby as nicknamed by my DH) should implant in the next few days....Sub-consciously watching everything I do and eat and every twinge. The truth is if it wasn't IVF I wouldn't have the foggiest idea what was going on and would have downed my favourite Margarita's at Mexican last night. This 2ww is never going to end.....
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Girls, just popping by to wish you all the best, and let you all know i will be lurking away to see how you all are coping XXX
Get some BFP's cracken in here girls!!!!
Oh yeah, the Crinone is just soooo delightfull.....
Thank you for all the well wishes, you are all a great inspiration to me too
Well... maybe not 'proud' - but... I have put a lot of thought into it and have decided to POAS through my 2ww.. and not beat myself up over it.
It all started after the conversation I had with the Embryologist... I was so down about it - and prior to that, I was so elated and hopeful... I feel like I did the right thing by POAS... I was so caught up in the propects of this little bean in my tummy... that if that kind of behaviour went on for 2 weeks... I would have been inconsolable when I got that call after BT...
I tested 5dp4dt... and the 7dp4dt, and 8dp4dt and all have come up flat negative. I know theres a small chance that it's to early, but I have pretty much accepted the fact that my little bean, like his/her embie-siblings didn't make it. I am not going to say that I am happy, or ok... but I am going to be able to deal better than what I would be if I was entertaining the idea that I was pg all along...
I've been thinking long and hard - and I am wondering why you choose not to POAS? I am really wondering what you all think the pro's and con's are...???
I figure.. if I have to pay 3k for an ICSI cycle this year - whats $100 more in HPTs?? lol... next time - I am going to test right from the beginning so I can see the trigger leave my system - and follow it along... I think.
It's been quite tough the last few days... hearing about Moonflower and Murraycod's BFN... devastating... it's just so unfair...
I am really worried about none of my 6 embies reaching viable blast stage... very concerning - does anyone know if that can change cycle to cycle??
MOONFLOWER - if you're around - hope you're doing ok...
MURRAYCOD - I am sooooo sorry to hear about your result hun... it just seems so, so unfair. I hope that your snowbaby is wonderful and strong... and that you dont have to do another cycle for a looooong time.
BJ - I hate the crinone gel also... I am actually more over just having to *do* it every night... I can't wait til next week when I can just stop... and these stupid estrogen patches are irritating my skin..!
LEABIE - wow! you've done well! Haha... I can't wait to finally see some BFP in here! It's about due!!!
Sorry to anyone I've missed!
Be really interested to hear your thoughts about my POAS theory!
MC - I am really sorry you didn't get a BFP this month, I had everything crossed for you. DH was looking at me very strangely when I kept checking the computer to see if there was any word from murraycod, he thinks I have lost totally lost it.
Leabie - Hi! Glad I gave everyone a giggle with my strange post title I'm glad the 2ww hasn't been too unbearable for you this time.
MF - I hope you had a delightful weekend away and that you were able to focus on something else for a little while ! No illegal shennanigans for me (well none I want to share)
FGS - I hpe time hasnt stalled to a crawl for you and I hope you are feeling a little more positive. I really think (for what its worth) your little one has every chance now his back where he belongs!
BJ - How are you doing? All going according to plan our little ones should be implanting any day now! The crinone really is crap isn't it!
The first two days flew by and I actually thought I would breeze through the two weeks. I don't know what has happened today but I am suddenly really really sad about the prospect of my little embie not making it, I feel horrible I can't do anything to help!
And you're right it sux wathcing every little move you make, thing you eat, analysing every little cramp or twinge. All in all I think I have gone loopy and I am only 4 days in on my first ever cycle
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to the mad house. 
I hope that you enjoy your stay here. I know from personal experience the ladies are all wonderful and will really help you get through this. 
Sharee you just nearly made me wet myself.....that was the best laugh I've had in ages, exactly what I needed! I noticed that before and just thought......um ok, maybe I missed something. Hahahaha. Nice work xxx
(not from my mouth...........) Anyway......
we will all be here for you, you will be amased at how slow days go so quickly XXXX
Allow me, atleast for this month, to hold the record of POAS and freaking out!! XXX!!!XXX
I'm just popping in to wish murraycod good luck with the BT today. I do hope you are pleasantly surprised! I'll be keeping a look out. Good luck to everyone else waiting for news too, it's such a hard wait, you remind me of what it's like. I look forward to being back in the TWW in a couple of months, hopefully by that time you will all have moved into the PG thread!
Your little embie is in the safest and best place it can be... (especially being away from that Negative Nelly embryologist 
can't believe she said that!)
Have been having some dull cramping over the past few days which I'm guessing is from the gel and my BB's are still really tender but otherwise am feeling pretty good. You know sometimes I hate knowing so much about what is going on in there. Knowing that if everything goes according to plan my little 'lone ranger' (emby as nicknamed by my DH) should implant in the next few days....Sub-consciously watching everything I do and eat and every twinge. The truth is if it wasn't IVF I wouldn't have the foggiest idea what was going on and would have downed my favourite Margarita's at Mexican last night. This 2ww is never going to end.....
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