Corelly, Thank you for the super long post! You got me nodding in agreement the whole way. My SIL is pregnant too (along with everyone else I know and I want them and my whole family to be able to get excited about their upcoming birth without having to stop and think about how I am coping (it's not about me!). At the same time though, I still get so so upset after I talk to my brother who is sounding soooo excited - it's not because I resent them it's just purely because it reminds me of what I was so close to having. Plain, simple, childish jealousy I guess. Hope your little fur baby is doing well

(I'm seeing my bro and SIL and their growing belly this weekend. I'm taking all of your advice along to help me! - thanks again)