oh Satya - I am so sorry. It is a wonderful site for support isn't it? I have been on another one, but like this one MUCH better. please feel free anytime to rant and rave here, as I do the same some days!

Speaking of which, this morning I can now feel AF pangs or something...I wish I could stop all this waiting and the feeling of NOT being in control, which I think is the worst thing.