Good to see you back, Chelle. I think you are coping amazingly well - you are an incredibly strong woman to have gone through all of that. I hope the testing gives you some answers.

In NZ, you're only a couple of hours ahead of us. So the appointment is today (in around 3 hours, in fact!). I'm feeling quite calm about it... I seem to have finally been successful in letting go of a lot of my worries and fears, and while I'm pretty sure there will be tears at the appointment, I'm not feeling like I'm in full on control freak mode.

I find the time zone thing practically impossible to work out when dealing with people in the US - it's just too hard!

BW