Okay I have composed myself and thanks to all you wonderful wonderful and beautiful souls who care so much about a complete stranger Im feeling ok. BW you have made a big difference in my outlook on my situation and now I have a plan. I live for plans and when there is no plan I go crazy, but I guess you have all probably notioced that Im sorry for being down but we have decied to get a second opinon and possibly chamge clinics.

You guys are so good i cant thank you enough....