While I can't offer any words of wisdom on the test (I've yet to have mine and I'm a bit worried about it), I just wanted to send you a big hug because it sounds like you really need one. From what I've read, a lot of people go over on the first test but are fine with the second one. Hope that is the case for you.

I'm also very sorry that you've lost your dog to cancer. My dog is getting on and I simply dread anything happening to her. So I can imagine how terrible you must feel at the moment. Some more big hugs