Diddles,
It's not uncommon to feel like a pregnancy has ruined or will ruin your life, but it is a very good sign you need to talk to someone. It's also a bit of a worry that you are worried your partner may selfharm. Definitely don't bottle this up. It's time to reach out somewhere where you can feel safe and secure and listened to.

The depression and anxiety forum is here https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...splay.php?f=38