All I seems I do these days is complain. Its driving me batty!! I have finally been diagnosed with Pelvic Instability (which I already knew) yet am getting no help from anywhere. I have been referred to the Physio at Flinders but there is a waiting list of 131 people. I was kindly told today that my condition doesnt stand up to the range of conditions at the womens health Physio, so I would be lucky to see anyone before the baby is born. WHAT??? I still have 11 weeks with no light at the end of the tunnel. Alright, well Flinders have tried suggesting calling Noarlunga Physio and getting in there. Oh really?? Let me tell you - they told me that once they got the referral faxed through that I would be triaged, and if Flinders werent confident they would see me chances are neither will Noarlunga. ARE YOU SERIOUS???
Sigh, you know theres only 2 thing I want. Maybe Im asking too much, I dont know but to be able to do a little bit of work (I didnt do my nursing degree to sit on a couch all day....) and to have only 5 minutes... yes 5 minutes pain free. Ive been exercising gently, sleeping with a pillow between the legs - but always have since my first born in 2001, icing icing icing, rest rest rest, panadol before bed to take the edge off the pain. Im beggining to feel like a big fat whale - even the Japs would take shots at me on the street if they saw me (yea probably a bad joke - sorry if it offends).
But you know what - Im not sure whats worse. Everything Ive said above, or the emotional toll its taking on me and my body because I cant play with my 4 kids, or take them places we all like to go. Or even spending quality bedroom time with hubby because the thought of the pain makes me shudder.
I dont know. Im supposed to be enjoying this pregnancy, as it is definitely my last, but I feel I cant. I worry that this may cause bonding issues with bub after he is born (yes its a boy - god knows we need it to even out these estrogen levels flying around the place with all these girls).
I think however after all thats been said, what kills me the most is the lack of sleep. I spend hours trying to get comfortable, and finally when I do fall asleep am either woken by the urgent need for the loo for a couple of drips (grrr the bladder wasnt put in a very good spot for women and pregnancy) or because I have to roll over because the hips are aching to buggery. Im living on 3 - 4 hours sleep a night. I feel if I could just get a decent nights sleep the everything else will be dealable.
See all complaints I so desperately want to enjoy my last moments of being pregnant but am having big issues knowing I still have another 11 weeks to live through this pain.