soul, i was diagnosed with Non Hodgkins lymphoma just over 2 years ago - 3 months after i was married!!!! cancer is a horrid thing to be diagnosed with and i hated almost every step of my life for almost a year!!!

i had 6 months of chemo which started as soon as i was diagnosed - and i had almost 4 months of tests (extremely painful procedures) and an operation to find out what my "lump" was!!

i got through it my staying positive and cheeful - well on the outside - i had the whole brave face thing too!!

the night my hair started falling out i completely lost the plot and wanted to give up = and had more dayd like that!!
i ahd to go on medication to put me inot early menopause so that i still could have a chance of havign children. i also developed a condition called neutropenia in which i had to haev a needle adminsited by my DH every second week (after chemo) which made every bone in my body hurt so bad that i woud cry if i was cuddled - so i pulled back into myself - buti realised that i would never get thru it if i didnt have a positive attitude and stayed as happy as i could!!

yes there are very hard days that i felt liek crawling into a corner and cry - so i did - then i was better and could regain my strength and continue fighting!!

to this day i am abotu 26 months clear - and wil have a scan after i have my little miracle.
i continue to need scans every 3 months - and will have scans for as long as i live to make sure it has gone and stays that way!!

i send you all the strengt that you need - but its ok to haev mini melt downs - they enable you to stay grounded and regroup to continue the fight!!!

please contact me if you need i am more than happy to help if you need - even if its a shoulder to sook on!!!


i always have it in the back of my mind i catch myself feeling my neck where my lump was removed.. thats human nature - it also lets me know what i have to be thankful for!

you sound like a very strong person - keep your strength!!
youll get thru it!!