I have this feeling that i am going to die soon. I get all panicky and my heart beats. I have seen how i will die. It was replayed in front of my eyes over and over again.

My dreams tend to come true. I want to learn to meditate and channel, but don't know how to.

Which books are best? Or DVDs. Anything. I want to channel in to this "gift" which i may have.

I am scared of dying. I wear my DHs clothes to take in his scent. I spray his cologne. I tell him i love him 100 times a day. I can't get enough of him (not sexually). I stare at him all the time, trying to take him all in.

I can feel the tears well up, so i'm going to stop typing.

Has anyone felt this before. This has been the most strongest feeling ever.