Becc, thanks for the post, it is good for us to know how you are doing. It must be some comfort that the bleeding has slowed. I know I found that quite hard because it is a constant reminder of the loss, and until it stops it is too hard to not think about it, it is a bit all consuming. I know that for me it was things like the bleeding that made it so much more real, that we did actually lose small babies and my DH didn't have to go through that. It sounds like your DH is really supportive which is great, so glad he could get some time off. I think it is really important to take some time out to just grieve and do nothing much apart from that, because it makes the healing process that much easier and quicker even though it is hard at the time. I know you will get through this, you show so much courage in everything that you do. I know that last time I m/ced someone said how brave I was. I didn't feel brave, but I felt like I was a survivor, that I would come out the other side of it and already you sound like a survivor and not a victim, so you have already come such a long way. I know it is hard when other people do not know what has happened for you and you are trying to act normal. It was for this reason that I told a few people after our last m/c (not the one's before that) because I just couldn't feel like I had the energy or strength to keep a brave face and soldier on. I know that the people I told have been so immensely supportive both after our m/c and throughout our time now and I am really glad I shared, because I really needed that support. Whether you find this helps I think is entirely individual as I know for some people it is an intensely private matter. You have to work out what sits right for you. I know that wherever you choose to post we will follow you! You can't get away from us now! Don't feel rushed to post somewhere else until you feel really ready, we will be around to support you in any thread.
Love and hugs,
Meg