Hi Nae Nae,ladies. We lost our 8 year old son Brendan four years ago,he went through a Bone Marrow transplant for a genectic disorder. Our family finds it extremely hard at xmas,especially his older brother & sister,we manage to get by and to remember the goods times we were able to share,but we still feel so much pain four years on,and i dont think that we will ever change,Birthdays,Easter etc.....We also light a candle for our sweet boy just so he knows he is still part of our family and always will be. Sorry to hear some of you are feeling so down,but I have my down days too,but i try my hardest to be nice to people around me,even if I?m ****ed off. I really hate how our family never talks about our son anymore though,it`s like he didn`t exist to some,iykwim. Thinking of you all,just take each day at a time,thats all we can do. Cheers to all.