My post probably sounded a little selfish, it does now that I go back & re-read it, but it was how I was feeling. I don't have any relatives close, all 3hrs +, parents 12 hrs away, so realise I had probably been relying on having friends there to prop me up more than I should've. At the time it seemed so important, but I've surprised myself & done ok on my own so far.

Don't get me wrong, DF has been here with me the whole time, but there are some things that he doesnt understand & I think that there are some things about MC that you definately don't understand unless you've been through it yourself. I certainly didn't understand when my friend went through it & now wish I'd been able to/known how to support/comfort her more than I did at the time.

Alice - I'm sorry that you are feeling down as well, coz like you said its just one more thing on top of everything else to deal with. I hope when you are both ready that you are able to talk to your friends about your little angel, & maybe find some comfort together after sharing similar experiences.

Over the last few days I have just thrown myself into doing my own thing & tried very hard to concentrate on my feelings( not other peoples or what I think they may be thinking) & try to feel that I am strong enough to stand on my own two feet through this.

Well it's back to the grind for me tomorrow (work), wish me luck it's going to be a testing day.

Thanks for sharing Ladies, everyone of you are so very appreciated in here