didn't want to have to write in here...

[butterfly_warrior]

Hang in there, SaraJane. Remember that God is in control...

Hopefully things will get started and be over soon. Just look at how unwilling your body is to let go of this precious angel... Thinking of you... sometimes the wait is the worst of all...

BW

[Shanti]

Sara, I only just found this thread I'm so sorry once again for your HUGE loss.... You know I am thinking of you and your DH every day and I am so proud of you for the way you've handled it all so far, you are doing so well.... cry when you need to cry, smile when you want to smile, and don't feel bad for any feelings you have as it is all normal

You have really gone through an emotional time the last few days I'm so sorry

[Heaven]

Thanks BW and Ren.

Well, more bad news for me. A family member is really unwell, we knew this was coming and I have to go away tomorrow morning early. Don't know how long for, probably 2 wks. We were planning on going on the weekend anyway for a holiday but now I just have to go a bit earlier.
ANYWAY, I'm meant to have my Dr appt tomorrow morning for the results of my BT and whatever else. So I rang them but she's not there today, my 2nd BT results haven't came back but the first have and they said HCG: 8900 and Progesterone: 28. So it really doesn't mean anything, can't see how fast it's going down or anything. But they've written a note for the Dr to ring me tomorrow to talk about it.
So, what I want to know is, I'm going away, there's nothing I have to worry about is there? Unless something happens and I'm feeling really sick or bleeding a lot? Then I will go to the hospital down there. It's still just spotting at the moment but has increased a bit the last 2 days, still not much tho. Any advice on what I have to do, look out for or anything??
Thanks girls.

[Kitt3n]

Oh SJ, you poor thing!

Try and rest, as hard as it is. If the bleeding gets worse or you get a different coloured discharge go straight to ER (you may be haemorraging) (SP??)

Take care and let your body and heart mend xxx

[Heaven]

Thankyou Cat

[MeredithD]

SJ - I am so so sorry for your loss.Life can be so cruel - to give us a precious gift then snatch it away just as our dreams are unfolding! It is so unfair and my heart breaks for you and all you are going through. Sadly, i know all those emotions only to well.
Not trying to change your mind on the D&C issue but I will just give you my personal story and opinion. I have done it both ways and would defnitely go the D&C. I have lost 4 babies now but actually "losing" them, my body is not keen on at all. My first m/c was quite early (5 weeks) and I did start out the "natural' way but after a lot of pain, ended up with a D&C as it just wasn't all clearing out. My next two were "missed m/c's" and I elected D&C because I couldn't handle carrying dead babies around whilst still feeling all the pregnancy symptoms. I needed closure and I also wanted to have my babies tested. Mind you, I still ended up with retained products after both D&Cs. Last time need a second D&C but this most recent m/c looks like I will pass the rest myself.
I am sorry if I am sounding so negative to "natural" m/c. I am in no way trying to deter you from the very personal decision you have made. Just wanted to warn you that it doesn't always "complete" itself naturally and may take quite awhile eg weeks. With your HCG and prog levels still quite high, your body does still think it is pg and so may hang on to your baby for some time yet. Even after a D&C almost 3 weeks ago, my HCG is still 900 (I still feel m/s almost all day!) and my temp only dropped yesterday so I am guessing, without surgery, my babies would still be in there now, almost a month after they died.Personally, I just could not have handled carrying them around that long.
Praying for you that things happen sooner rather than later and you are able to "birth" your baby as you wish. Remember, your health IS a priority so if things aren't going well, then please get medical attention.

[Heaven]

Thankyou Meredith.
It looks like things are going to plan and it started last night, phew.
Gotta run, will talk to you all when I get back.
Thanks girls