in exactly the same boat!! talking to DH last night i was saying how i don't want to replace J, but i want another baby.....and he was saying he understands, but he's not there yet, he's not ready to think about that....which made me feel bad (not his fault) because i was thinking about another baby.....gah it's so hard!!!

i wish i could say something that make you feel better, or that would make all of us feel better.........all i can say is im here for you if you need to talk or need to ask anything.....massive to you, and really hope it goes well tomorrow. you will be in my thoughts, and i hope you have a lovely goodbye service for your beautiful Hayle May xoxoxoxoxox