Oh Mel,
I know exactly how you are feeling! After we lost our first bub @ 8 weeks I was crushed, then numb, then ok, then not. Its a long process and it has recently re-surfaced for me as we head down the ttc road again. I know that some days I felt ok but then I would be thrown back into the feelings due to that fact that I was still bleeding - I wanted it to stop so I could try and move on - I tottally get you on that.
Please be kind to yourself and take a while to heal and know that I am eveyone on BB is here for you.

As for the bleeding - I bleed for 3 weeks after my m/c and then a week of not then I got AF as well so I know what you mean.

Hope that helped even a tiny bit, please know that you are welcome to speak in our babby buddies group as well - we are all here for you!

Kate xox