I had my scan, and they confirmed that the baby was only measuring 8w4d, and no heartbeat.
I have another drs appt at 2pm, I guess we will discuss what to do to get it out. I'm personally thinking along a d&c line as I dont think I want to see what comes out of me.
The dates tie in perfectly from when I got gastro nearly 3 weeks ago. I guess between the dehydration, the vomiting and the diarrhoea the poor little bugger just couldn't do it.
In a way it feels OK cause I know we can make another baby, and I guess its good that its nothing I could control. I mean - how could I stop myself being sick, and how could I stop myself catching a bug that is spreading all around Geelong. Its not a problem with me, or my insides, or something I did.
I guess the hardest thing is even though I told my dr and the midwife clinic that something was wrong, I had to initiate the scan, I had to pay for it, and I had did it all against their recommendations - they told me to wait a week. Why couldn't someone help me? Why isn't there a something in the public system that allows you to get checked when this happens?
So it will be a rough couple of days. Thanks to bec for her support, and I hope she will enjoy our bender!!! As she says - they will have to carry us home in a police car.
Oh Fi, I am so very very sorry to hear your news. I was so hoping that this would not be the case for you.
You're right, you couldn't stop yourself from being sick - you did nothing wrong. This is not your fault.
I would say that yes, you will probably go in for a D&C.
I'm so sorry that you had to 'force' the issue of having a scan done with your Doctor etc. Things shouldn't be that hard - you need all the support and assistance you can get at these stressful times in your life and to instruct you to wait for a week is just cruel - that would send me around the twist altogether.
Again, I am so very sorry. I'm glad that you are not blaming yourself, that's good. I'm sorry the your doctor and midwife didn't give you the attention that you needed, it sucks that they didn't listen to you and help you when you had concerns. I hope they let you do things your way in regards to a d and c, I hope they don't let you m/c naturally if that's not what you want.
Fi,
You are an amazing person, this little bubby was blessed to have you as its mum. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, and you know if there is anything I can do!
Bec
xxxx
Gunna be tough few days.....
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