Well,

I had my scan, and they confirmed that the baby was only measuring 8w4d, and no heartbeat.
I have another drs appt at 2pm, I guess we will discuss what to do to get it out. I'm personally thinking along a d&c line as I dont think I want to see what comes out of me.

The dates tie in perfectly from when I got gastro nearly 3 weeks ago. I guess between the dehydration, the vomiting and the diarrhoea the poor little bugger just couldn't do it.

In a way it feels OK cause I know we can make another baby, and I guess its good that its nothing I could control. I mean - how could I stop myself being sick, and how could I stop myself catching a bug that is spreading all around Geelong. Its not a problem with me, or my insides, or something I did.

I guess the hardest thing is even though I told my dr and the midwife clinic that something was wrong, I had to initiate the scan, I had to pay for it, and I had did it all against their recommendations - they told me to wait a week. Why couldn't someone help me? Why isn't there a something in the public system that allows you to get checked when this happens?

So it will be a rough couple of days. Thanks to bec for her support, and I hope she will enjoy our bender!!! As she says - they will have to carry us home in a police car.

Fi