Again, I am so very sorry. I'm glad that you are not blaming yourself, that's good. I'm sorry the your doctor and midwife didn't give you the attention that you needed, it sucks that they didn't listen to you and help you when you had concerns. I hope they let you do things your way in regards to a d and c, I hope they don't let you m/c naturally if that's not what you want.

Please take care of yourself