Such lovely caring posts, thank you all so much. Thank you too Csab, I will certainly look into whether I need aspirin. How did you find out you had a clotting problem, and how much aspirin did you take? Congratulations on your beautiful Olivia.

The doctors I have seen have not been in the least interested in finding out why these miscarriages have occurred. They just said that it happened all the time, what I could I expecte at my age? and testing wasn't done until you've had 3 miscarriages! I don't have the time or the emotional strength to suffer another miscarriage before something is done. This is appalling. How can they be so dismissive of the emotional and physical cost to women and their families of numerous losses?
I must admit that I do fluctuate between wanting desperately to try again and then sinking into despair, feeling that I'd be selfish at my age to do it and that i couldn't cope with another miscarriage, this usually happens when I'm lying in bed with my hands on my poor flat empty tummy..

Thoughout this whole awful journey I have been continually dismayed at the behaviour and attitudes of the doctors I have had the misfortune to consult. I know there are some good doctors out there but I haven't found any yet. They just don't seem to give a s**t.

It amazes me that for nearly 10 years after my son was born nothing happened, I did not fall pregnant, and now it has happened twice in 18mths. It's cruel in a way cause until it happened in 2007 I had sort of accepted that I could not fall pregnant again and would only have one child and had put it at the back of my mind. Now my dream of another could be a reality. I think this is my body's last ditch attempt to have another child before I go into menopause, it's trying so hard but just can't seem to do it. The rising and then crashing of my hopes and dreams on two occasions now has just been torturous. If its not going to happen then why torture me with hope? nature can be very cruel.

I went shopping on the weekend for the first time since the D&C and of course the place was full of pregnant women..one lady looked to be in her 40's and I felt dizzy and my hands started to shake when I saw her with her beautiful big belly..

Out of the blue the other day my son gave me a hug and told me what great mum I was, and how I should have had more children, not just him, cause I have so much love in me and only him to give it to (he didn't know I was pregnant or that I had lost the babies). It made me so sad but proud when he told me that. He has always wanted so much to be a big brother and I would love to give him the sibling he so wants. What a beautiful boy he is.

I obviously need to consult a fertility specialist but I was told by a doctor recently that due to such poor success rates, they do not take patients older than 44. Does anyone know if this is true? I just don't trust GP's to understand or have the specialist knowledge that I obviously need to increase my chances of success.

Builej, your words of comfort and support when you are going through your own such tragic and difficult experience are much appreciated. The way the medical profession deals with miscarriage leaves an awful lot to be desired, particularly with regard to mothers' emotional health. Please know I am thinking of you too and hope you are working through your grief and looking to the future to that beautiful BFP.
Wouldloveabubba, thank you too, your lovely posts make me cry and you are a special person to be able to offer such comfort to others when you are on such a difficult and painful journey of your own.

I would like to thank all the women who have posted their stories and offered their much appreciated support. All the brave and determined women on here are such an inspiration to me and I look forward to hearing stories of success in the future.

Tracie.