Angel

Sweety, I am not sure what to say. I am so sorry that you have to go through all of this, life just isnt fair! Hugs to you and DH!

As for how to get through this! There is no easy answer, believe me! I wish that someone would come up with a pill to make it all go away. I have to agree with the others, avoid people! I know what you mean about trying to be normal especially since you hadnt told anyone. I had to do the same, what made it even harder was that I didnt tell my Dad either, and since we live with him, it made it even harder to be at home and pretend that everything was normal.

I found that I avoided people for about 2 weeks each time. I did have 2 close friends, who I did tell, and they were absolutely brilliant and would allow me to cry and be a heaving mess whenever I needed to. It takes time, nothing I say will make it any easier but I have to say that the thing that really helped me was this site and all the friends that I have made through here. I found myself being able to type while bawling my eyes out, just to get all the crap out of my head, really helped. I have also realised that I cant do all of this alone, I need the people here but I am also seeing a counsellor, who has been absolutely brilliant and I am feeling a lot better for it.

Sending you heaps of love and hugs