Willow - i think it's natural to feel grief again when you're letting go of something that holds so much of your heart. yeah, to someone else, it's just a bassinette - a beautifully restored piece of furniture - but to you, it is a lot more! as you mentioned, it's the only thing you bought for your angel - you held on to it until L arrived knowing that it held the memory of your hopes for your angel, and the hopes for L. whether he liked it or not wasn't the point - for you, it was, and is, a tangible reminder of all that has happened in the past couple of years.

yes, you're probably right in that the time has come to sell it - doesn't mean it won't hurt - especially considering a small part of your heart hadn't really realised it was going to happen until you seen that bid! i don't think our heads and our hearts are always on the same page. don't feel bad for letting that grief surface again Willow - the loss of your angel has formed a part of your life, shaped who you are - it's more than natural to feel that pain again now (i think timing might be in there as well - it's been a very long and hard two years for you hun)

take care

BG