With our first loss, I started wondering when the pregnancy symptoms disappeared. I even posted a thread asking if it was normal. That was about 8-9 weeks. I hadn't bought anything yet. I was holding back. The day of the OB appt was the first day I started looking at things like teddies. Then we found there was no HB and we went into shock. What's struck me in hindsight was my first reaction to the BFP, apart from shock, was to tell DH if this didn't stick, he was going to have to take Menevit next time. I had spotting at 6wks, but had a scan and saw a HB, though it was only 97bpm. No-one said anything about that though.

With Leo I spotted again at 6weeks and scared we were going to lose him. I was terrified until I felt him move, then I'd get scared he wasn't moving enough. I even wondered at one stage if he might be deaf, because he didn't seem to be as active or responsive as other people's babies. I've gone over notes I made during the pregnancy and I keep saying I hope the baby is OK. All the scans were normal. I don't know if it's my normal paranoia or if I knew all alone that there was something wrong. I had a hard time visualising a newborn - it all seemed so abstract to me. I could only "see" a toddler. I've since found out Mum was worried all along, but she doesn't know if it was because of the previous m/c or instinct. She had a bad dream the night I went into labour and couldn't settle all day.