AFM - well girls the nurse today was much more positive, my levels have gone up from 331 to 612, so not quite doubled in 48 hours but she said as long as it either goes up 60% in 48 hours, or doubled in 72 hours then they're happy with that. Mine has gone up 85% so I have to be happy with that. My only concern now is stupid me forgot my suppository last night before bed - I think I was too stressed to remember anything, now I'm supposed to be on 3 I'm still getting into a routine on the 3rd, anyway my prog has dropped from 87 to 35. She said it will pick up again today but not to forget again as they like numbers to be at least 60 - has anyone any experience with this? Will they pick up pretty well straight away? Now I'm worried about those and my next test isnt until Thursday. Goodness does the worry ever end?? Thank you all for your support, it means A LOT!
Watched Bones tonight - my lord, did that hurt my heart to watch her labour. I hated and loved every second of it. I went straight to bed afterwards (about 7.30), only to have Professor follow me. Hard enough for men to understand and sympathise with early miscarriage, but an aspie? Bless his heart, he kept trying to fix it all.
I'm stuck in limbo. I shouldn't have to fight for my baby like this; in this day, in this country, I shouldn't have to fight for my right to bear a child. I don't know if I have the strength to continue the search for a doctor that will listen to me. I've tried squashing the longing down, but it doesn't work - last time I fought it ended in a nervous breakdown. I just don't know what to do now, I don't know what I have the strength for.
Keike, I am so sorry that you have to fight so hard to get your earth side baby . It just shouldn't be this hard, not for you, not for anyone. I just can't imagine the heart ache and disappointment that no doubt comes with it all. My heart just breaks for you hun, and I wish I could fix it for you. If only it was that simple....I came across a great doctor, many years ago, by a friend's recommendation. I'm happy to give you his details hun but I don't know where you live. It's amazing what strength we do have in us, sometimes it just seems like there isn't any. Big hugs honey, and don't give up on your dream just yet, even if it doesn't seem that you have much fight left in there.
Alison, I hope you're feeling a bit better now hun. Keep relaxing and talking to your little one to grow nice and strong
Freya, I hope you're OK hun, I'm always thinking of you
Hiya to everyone else
AFM, well so much for the positivity (don't read this bit Keike, I really, really am a very positive person, but mainly for others and not my blooming self ). I went on Dr Google and typed in 'fertility for a 42 year old doing IVF' and I almost fell off my chair. It was an American site and it had diagrams how many healthy eggs typically a 42 yo & a 28 yo has. Basically, the 28 yo's sample had lots of green dots (good eggs) and just as many red dots (dodgy eggs). Well the 42 yo's sample was looking rather like a Chinese flag!!!!! Mosty red dots, and it was a case of find the green dots!! They were saying that when you scoop out a sample from the 28 yo, you'll have a good amount of green eggs in there. In the 42 yo, the scoop could very well consist of mainly red eggs as there just isn't many green ones. Soooooooooo depressing! So now with my upcoming cycle I'll be imagining all red dots Stupid Dr Google and even supider me!!! Boo hoo. OK, rant over, I'll try to get back the little miss positive that I usually am.
Hi Miss B - just to lessen your depression on the red dots vs green dots theory, I am 38 (39 in June) and have an AMH level of 1.1 - well that was 6 months ago, goodness knows what it is now and I have managed 4 pregnancies in the last 12 months so please don't give up hope, doctors don't know everything remember!!!!!!!
Hi Sara - I'm so sorry AF turned up, witch that she is. Wishing you some sticky vibes that next month is yours xx
Joeve, thanks hun, that made me laugh! Green dots all the way then Stupid stupid red dots
Alison, thanks for sharing that with me. You are a very fertile lady hun I'm sorry again for all your losses, it's such a gamble when the egg numbers are low. It's just a matter of getting that good egg hey? How are you feeling today?
Sara, I'm sorry AF arrived hun
Hello to everyone else
Well, I'm getting unusual O pains, more intense and weirder than my normal O pains. So I figure it's worth going for gold this month before we start the next IVF cycle soon, in case all the acupuncture has made me super fertile. So off to jump DF's bones . Haha, I'm going to put myself in a 'natural' TWW, you never know, we could get a really really strong swimmer and my big perfect green egg this cycle!! hahahahaha
Hi Miss B - oooh you go get that green egg....hang on, that doesn't sound right - but you know what I mean he he xx
AFM - had bloods again today and numbers are rising nicely so far, progesterone is still a little low, it's up from Monday but not back to how it was last weekend before I forgot that 1 suppository, grrr. They don't seem worried about it so I will try not to as well. My stomach is black and blue from the Clexane injections, fun and games. I am suffering what I can assume is tailbone pain today though, when sitting down for a while it aches in my bum and hurts when I stand up to walk, and radiates down my leg a little. I was freaking out a bit earlier but I am hoping it's just some normal stretching going on, I do have a tilted uterus so maybe it's that. I do not remember this with my daughter but it was 2.5 years ago.....I hope the extra 6kgs I'm carrying this time haven't got anything to do with it
Great news about the levels rising nicely Alison! I wouldn't worry about the progesterone hun, if the clinic is not worried about it, you shouldn't be either. I guess it's just one less thing to worry about! I hope that pain in the tailbone goes away for you soon. I found when I was pg there were all sorts of little pains here and there but I just put it down to the body reacting to the pg. I hope you'll be able to have a much more relaxing weekend now hun, will be so much more relaxing than the last one
Alison - That's great news on your levels. I know it's hard but if the clinic aren't too concerned about your progesterone then try and streees (is that the right word) less. If your really worried maybe ask them if it's ok to increase the progesterone? Even if it's for your own peace of mind.
MissB how are those O pains going? BD'ing going on?
Hi everyone else Joeve, Keike & Sara. Hope all is well.
All going well IVF wise. My BT is on Saturday so just riding it out until then. But in saying that I'll be joining you ladies in the pregnancy after MC thread. Just waitng for BT to confirm levels for me.
Porsche, great news on your nice stong second line!!! GL with your BT on Saturday hunni I've been busy around the O time yes, hehehehe, I'm on CD 14 today day. How funny would it be if I got pg naturally with all the acupuncture and herbs I've been having, before my cycle in May?? It would truly be a miracle, and yes, they do happen
Still early days yet and as we all know things *can* happen between now and then so FX.
MissB - stranger things have happened. You hear about it all the time. FX it happens for you. 2 of my IVF MG have fallen pregnant naturally after having IVF babies. not me .
Hi Porsche - OMG yay good luck for your blood test Saturday! How exciting!!!! When will you be due, early Jan?
AFM - doing well so far, was feeling scared yesterday as my next testing day came around but my numbers were great, quadrupled since Thursday and my progesterone is finally on the up. Woke up feeling a little yuk this morning so hoping this one's a sticky one! Booked my dreaded 7 week scan so 2 weeks to go. That will be a hard day given that's the time when everything fell apart last time.
Alison - Yes I'll be due Jan 9th. Great news on your levels and progesterone. I'llbe looking out for my progesterone this time unfortunatly. Another 2WW. Hopefully it arrives soon for you FX.
I'm not feeling excited about this BFP. I guess just have to reach the milestones. 1st one being the 1st BETA BT. I feel nauseous on and off and my back is aching and eventually goes down my hips and into my legs.
. It just shouldn't be this hard, not for you, not for anyone. I just can't imagine the heart ache and disappointment that no doubt comes with it all. My heart just breaks for you hun, and I wish I could fix it for you. If only it was that simple....I came across a great doctor, many years ago, by a friend's recommendation. I'm happy to give you his details hun but I don't know where you live. It's amazing what strength we do have in us, sometimes it just seems like there isn't any. Big hugs honey, and don't give up on your dream just yet, even if it doesn't seem that you have much fight left in there.
). I went on Dr Google and typed in 'fertility for a 42 year old doing IVF' and I almost fell off my chair. It was an American site and it had diagrams how many healthy eggs typically a 42 yo & a 28 yo has. Basically, the 28 yo's sample had lots of green dots (good eggs) and just as many red dots (dodgy eggs). Well the 42 yo's sample was looking rather like a Chinese flag!!!!! Mosty red dots, and it was a case of find the green dots!! They were saying that when you scoop out a sample from the 28 yo, you'll have a good amount of green eggs in there. In the 42 yo, the scoop could very well consist of mainly red eggs as there just isn't many green ones. Soooooooooo depressing! So now with my upcoming cycle I'll be imagining all red dots 
Stupid Dr Google and even supider me!!! Boo hoo. OK, rant over, I'll try to get back the little miss positive that I usually am.
. Haha, I'm going to put myself in a 'natural' TWW, you never know, we could get a really really strong swimmer and my big perfect green egg this cycle!! hahahahaha
I've been busy around the O time yes, hehehehe, I'm on CD 14 today day. How funny would it be if I got pg naturally with all the acupuncture and herbs I've been having, before my cycle in May?? It would truly be a miracle, and yes, they do happen 
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