I needed to post this in memory of my beautiful son.

My baby's name is Liam Kalvin and he was born on 24/08/05 in respiratory distress - he had the cord wrapped around his neck and was blue (had very low scores on the Apgar all 3 times) so he went into special care for 24 hrs. We thought we had lost him when he was born, but thankfully ended up pulling through and went on to be a very chubby and healthy baby. My husband nicknamed him "Breadshop" because of how many rolls he had!
Then, on 09/12/05 I went in to check on him (he was sleeping on our bed because of the heat) and found him face down - he had rolled for the first time on his own! He wasn't breathing, he was cold and I just screamed in panic. I started CPR and in the first moment I thought he was back because he vomitted everywhere, but there was still no response. I continued CPR until the ambulance arrived where they took over and whisked him away to the hospital. The hospital staff tried very hard to revive him for what felt like a really long time - but unfortuanately he had already passed away.
I'm in tears right now just reminiscing!
After a while we were asked if we wanted to go and see Liam one last time before they took him away. I was in so much shock, I couldn't think for myself! My husband wanted to see him and at that point in time I knew I had to or I would regret it for the rest of my life. It was so hard to see him with all the wires and tubes and needles coming out of him. But, amongst all of the horror of what had just happened was my little boy - my baby. I gave him one last kiss and a cuddle, then, said goodbye.
If there's one thing I am totally and utterly greatful for is the time we had with him. Even though it was very short he touched our lives and we will never forget him.
Rest In Peace my little one.