So, it looks like this pregnancy was just not meant to be.
On friday I started getting some spotting, went to my GP yesterday who sent me for a u/s. Was supposed to be 8wks 4 days but showed the baby was only 6wks 1 day. So obviously it didn't make it
Anyway, I have done a lot of crying but am feeling ok now. I am coping better than I ever thought I would in this situation. I'm trying to be positive and think that this obviously wasn't meant to be, it's for the best, I will have my baby soon. And then I feel guilty for being so positive and thinking about TTC again and for not being sadder although I am very sad. Jeez, I just can't win.

Anyways, I need some advice now. And who better to turn to than all of you who have supported me through everything else. So I went to the GP and she saw the results of the u/s. It's clear that things aren't going to be ok. But still she wants me to get blood tests to see if my levels aren't rising. Now, there is absolutely NO possibility I'm 6wks, that would mean I got a bfp on the day I ovulated and we didn't even dtd anywhere near that time so it's physically impossible. Still she tells me I could have my dates wrong, I need to go and get blood tests and go for another scan later to see if they can see a heartbeat. For God sakes. I ask her if there's really any point seriously and she tells me that it's just that they can't be 100% certain and an OB wouldn't believe that it was 100% certain just from the u/s. Well I know it's certain, I'm not seeing an OB, I'm not having a D&C at this stage as the spotting is continuing so we think it will happen naturally. So why do I have to prove it to anyone?? I will still have the scan when the bleeding has stopped like she suggested to see that everythings gone and there's no problems but I don't want to have the bloodtests!!

It means I will have to go tomorrow, then go saturday, then go back for the results on tuesday just to be told the bad news AGAIN. No thankyou. I don't feel like going anywhere and I don't want to go over it again I just want nature to take it's course. If there is any problems of course I will get it sorted out. So do I have to get the blood tests?? Can I just not go?? I didn't feel like arguing with her yesterday so I just took the referral. Is it ok not to get the blood tests?

Well, this turned out to be longer than expected. Thankyou if you read it all, and please give me your advice.