Oh sweetie, I think the moment you first wake in the morning and forget for a second what has happened before it overcomes you is the worst part of this. I know the feeling well, and as I'm sure you know, it eventually passes, but takes a while. I'm glad you are ok today, but please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Re your brother - I know what that is like. My BIL has been a bit of an idiot around us (actually, he is an idiot in general), so now we just don't tell him what's happening. That was a silly comment for your bro to make, I can imagine the shock you must have felt to hear his news with no warning! And I know what you mean about shocking everyone - you want someone else to feel the pain and shock that you have had been forced to endure so many times, so they can get some feeling of your reality. I hope your family are being supportive.

Let us know how your meeting with your FS goes, and again, please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Bun xx