I'm sorry you feel alone and like no one IRL gets it. After all of my m/c I felt alone, like I was the only one that had been through what I had and everyone around me was still going on about their lives whilst I felt stuck, lost and lonely. Please know that the BB community is here for you. I wish I could tell you it is going to be alright, but right now it isn't & it won't feel like that for a long time. I am in Sth East Vic if that is near to you? Happy to meet up or help you out if you need it. ((hugs))