So for me I had lost my sex drive (and is still not back to what I would like it to be) purely because I blamed sex for my first m/c. The fear will always be with me because I know the pain of m/c will always be with me.

I found that it helped being away from home from time to time because for me at home there were just so many memories and shattered dreams.

I'm sorry I don't really have any advice but what you are feeling is normal so there is nothing 'wrong' with you. You are grieving for your babies. Your DH may feel the same way but as the other ladies have suggested, he will show his grief differently. Perhaps ask him how he is grieving and even though you may be grieving in different ways at least that may make you feel like you are both on the same wavelength.