I am really sorry to hear about your losses. I can't shed any light for you as to why you feel the way you do. However we all grieve differently and there is no right or wrong way to go about it. You need to give yourself time and I am sure DTD is the last thing on your mind at the moment which might be why its making you feel this way about your partner. Perhaps as he is a reminder of your baby you have lost. Maybe as DTD is a real reminder of your pregnancy and what you have being through. I hope things improve for you with time. I think its also hard for men to understand how we as women feel when we do loose a baby which can also lead to resentment or disgust towards them when normally we don't feel like that.