Can I ask a question, and please remove it if I am out of line at all and I'm sorry if I am - was it a hard decision to cremate your babies rather than bury them ?
I guess for us it was deciding that we weren't ready to let Caitlyn go and to bury her means that we had to leave her somewhere. DH's family offered us use of one of the family plots but we didn't want to have her in one place when we lived in another. Having her cremated means she will be with us always - physically and spiritually. We don't plan living here forever and I would hate for my baby to be somewhere I'm not. A headstone wasn't the same. Plus she was a baby ... she couldn't be left there alone.

Also, it has been healing for me in the past year to be able to hold her when I need to, have her sit on my lap when I am feeling sad, and to take to our room and sit on my side table when I need her presence close. It may sound mad but if I couldn't have my baby, then this was the next best option.