*shakes fist in the air*

ITS JUST NOT FAIR! I am so sorry mel, and ditto to what everyone else has said, of course you deserve this. But I too know how you feel and it is very hard to even contemplating getting back on the wagon when you are going through this. And what a lousy time I know there isn't much I can say to console you but I want you to know I offer my thoughts.

Thinking of you.

*hugs*
Cailin