Yarrawin - I sort of know how you feel.. I dont have kids (we are ttc#1) but my best friend has a c-sec and gave birth to a baby girl at 32+4 and i was there at the birth (my friends like a sister to me! - So I am proud "Aunty Melzi" but when i went to see bubs she just was so little and I felt so bad leaving her too. When it came time to drop my friend home (without her daughter... ) she'd be in tears everytime. Im so sorry your bubby is in SCU but honestly it is the best place for her and you never know! She may pack on the weight fast and please the nurses and doctors enough to go home earlier! Dont forget to relax (easier said than done though) as you need to recover from your surgery! She is YOUR BABY Girl - you are a very strong mummy and please do see a dr at the hospital about PND... they WILL take you seriously. if they dont get another opinion. but if you think pnd could be a problem seek help or talk to someone to help. I know im not a mum, but if you need someone to talk to feel free to inbox me at any time xxxxxxx hope this has helped. xxx lots of hugs