Ohhh massive massive hugs yarra!!!
Congrats on ur special lil girl I'm sure she is absolutely beautiful!!
Hun don't feel guilty or useless u are doing n will always do wats right by ur lil girl cause u r her mum!! n that is something no nurse or dr will ever be able to fulfill.. They do the medical side but u r doing wat u can for now but it mite not seem like much but just that milk is the best job u could hav rite now..
N ur feelings are totally understandable
My ds2 was in scn for 2 month at birth n he was ful term his lung collapsed n his blood started clotting out of no where n he was a big healthy bubs being 17 I felt like the biggest failure n was always crying too it's hard to watch n see n hav to walk away
Ull get through this in time but u will feel better soon xox